right now i am crying inside...
if you see me in real life as if everythign is okay and happy...
i am trying to make everything ok and happy...
and one of them is learning to cry inside without showing it outside of you....
i can't even share why i am crying inside...
i don't need a hug or "it's gonna be okay queenie"
i just want you to know that i cry inside...
frustration...
impatience...
acceptance...
fucking accepting everything... that there some things that i cannot change or control...
oh god...
growing up is hard...
i wish i could be bratty... i wish i could whine to everybody else...
i wish i could just pout and be miserable so that everybody else could be miserable...
but i can't nowadays...
because...
nothing good comes out of it...
i won't get what i want...
but still...
i still cry inside...



