i am tired. i want to quit living. i want to get away from it all-the problems, pressures- i just want to get done with all of it.
i am currently looking for a job--financial problem--and i was getting tired of what i am doing. Can anyone tell me where to get a fast-cash? WELL, anyways, i was editing my resume when i happened on this site. I wanted to let my problems out but there's no one to tell it to..it seems that the people around me are so busy with their lives, and i know they have their own problems to solve,so i just go on my way without letting it out to anyone.
Now though, it seems ready to erupt and i can't hold it any longer. I want to let it out. ALL of it!
Just this semester, I was advised by our college to shift to another course because i failed in one of the subjects...very frustrating isn't it?
I have a family who is "depending" on me to supply for the financial needs.. HOW??I'm only a student!
Next, I want to have my freedom. I want to be independent. to get away from my family so that i would have time for myself..Is that so bad??? the problem is that, without me, what will my family do to feed?
I am actually second among five siblings. but my elder brother, seems to me as though he does not care if we die from starvation or not, is not doing anything about it.. but anyway, this blog is not his (ITS MINE!!!) so let's just forget about him.

my grandmother just called up. I have to go to her house to get some food for the family. She's been very supportive of us..but we're not really that close (childhood grudge-- i don't forgive and forget that easily).

next post, i will say something about my family....how is it that i'm the one carrying the "burden" of my family's cross.

i'm actually very thankful to this site. I've let out what i have inside and i feel better now...