I was reading Lucy's blog about being a control freak and it made me think of myself. I was taught to be an indepedent person. To do for myself and to have my own thoughts, opinions, and life. I like to be in control of my own everything and at times I can be unemotional when bad things happen.
I used to be the considered "the strong one." I can handle anything that comes my way. Hell, I survived living in NYC for two months. After my surgery, I am not the same. The way I react to things are different. I can sad one day and angry the next. Lately, I cry and have the most depressing moments, and I wonder why?
I just don't feel the same and I am wondering will I ever go back to being "the strong one."
