He left for the weekend. A family trip...camping..with a bunch of people. He will be home Sunday and promises to call. But do I really care that he will be back then? No..right now all I can think about is I want him here and he isn 't. He left early today, which I didn't even know was an option until it was happening. BUt that's how it had to be. Part of me is happy for him, I know he will have fun and I know he is excited to go. But the other selfish part of me can only see all the things that I am use to that will not happen..my good night text, my saturday morning phone call. And In all that I know i"m being incredibly whiny and sounding very ungrateful for what I have. I know I"ll be better tommorrow..or in a few hours. But right now I"m bummed.

 

He told me he didn't want me to stay at work until 4:15..so I won't..i'll stay until 4:10. I have things to do. I guess it's a bit childish of me...but sometimes my innner kid comes out. At least I know I made him happy before he left. And in two days he will be home calling me, I hope anyway. I"ll probably write later about the other things going on this week. But I have a date with a girlfriend tonight and I think I really need that time right now...like a lot...