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I have been sad and angry. I can even say that I have feeling depressed about this. I feel that I am have been hit in the stomach and I am trying to think it could b worse. I am blessed for what I have, but I am sad. I don't know how to get out of this sadness.
Last night, I cried and cried about having this surgery and my family. I felt alone and I was listening to music and this song came on. My mother is a big fan of Bob Marley's music and throughout my childhood, I have listened to his songs. I have a few of his song on my iTunes and this song came. I was still crying, but when I heard him say, Everything's gonna be alright, I knew I had to pull it together.
People say when you go through something it is test who you really and find your inner strength. I knew that in life you are going to have good days and bad ones, and sometimes that bad day can turn into weeks and months, but I don't know where my inner strength lies and I don't know if I will make it through this. Each day, I try for a better day and it make it through.
