i have been listening to this song for the past hour now...

ive been up since 2 am...

and now it's 4 am...

been playing facebook games and trying to read some of the posts i missed here...

so what's up with me?

why am i awake at this time?

well i slept at 9 pm, i didnt even finish the movie i was watching. i was mad at my sister for telling me the story. i mean wtf... what's teh fucking point of watching a movie if you keep telling what happens next?

i don't wanna dwell on this...

these days ive been trying to change my attitude. sometimes i dwell on negativity too much...

i accepted the fuck that there are soem shit in your life that you can't change. there are always gonna be some shitty things and some shitty people that can ruin you...

and it's all up to you if you either let them get you or move on with your life...

i'm moving on...

i will not let a 17 year old shitty attitude ruin me.

and don't let me start on my mother... LOL...

sometimes i feel like i'm a dumping ground of negativity in here...

i blamed myself for it sometimes because i'm so negative as well...

negative attracts negative...

life has been hard for me these days... theres too much going on that i want to accomplish...

too much change i want to happen in life...

i guess it's all up to you how you handle it...

and oh i bake a cake today. it was horrible...

but it didnt put me down...

cake is still cake...

and it tastes great even if it looks like shit... :-)

maybe i should apply that to life...

even if turns out shitty i would still have the sweetness of life... :-)

keep on blogging!!!