Right, so my hyper happy mood is gone. Not because something bad happened (although something shitty did go on), but just because I guess I've come down off my caffeine high or something.
I'm drag ass dead tired. Thinking tonight will totally be an early to bed night. Especially since now I have to get up early tomorrow morning. *grits teeth*
How would you like to hear 'You've failed me.' and have no clue as to how. Yup, that's how my dad entered the room a while ago. Apparently right after my aunt left town a couple of weeks ago, he told me to find him a birthday card for one of our close family friends. Her birthday is Friday. Apparently I've failed him in that I forgot to get the card and remind him about it. So now tomorrow morning we both have to get up, go together to get the damn card, and go to the post office so I can talk to the post office clerk and get overnight postage. There's just one problem.
He never said anything to me about it. Further, it really pissed me off how he said 'You failed me.' because he's been failing me for oh, 24 years now. It made me want to scream, especially the accusatory way he was speaking to me. What most likely happened was that he told my aunt about it, forgot to tell me, and thinks he did tell me. That or he got us mixed up again. What irks me is that he got all nasty arguing with me that he DID tell me and I just forgot.
WHY then does he expect me to remember every little fucking thing when apparently I forget so many things?! This is not the first time I've 'forgotten' something that I was never told. Maybe if he'd quit loading so much shit on me, I could remember things. Wait, nope, I'm sorry, I can't 'remember' things out of thin air that I've never been told. Another thing that irks me and INSULTS me is how he mixes me and my aunt up. It's incredibly insulting.
Also, who the hell can't pick out their own fucking birthday card for somebody? Who can't simply explain 'I need this to be delivered tomorrow.' at the post office? He can't. No, he could. He just thinks he's punishing me for forgetting something for him. I'm also getting sick of his attitude ever since because now he's got this patronizing, sly, shitty tone ever since. This whiney, annoying tone that makes me want to rip his eyeballs out through his ears.
Oh here we go again. Now he's bitching about the fucking dishes again. That's it. Tomorrow they're all getting put back whether he fucking likes it or not. He just wants something to bitch about but he's not going to do anything about it.
I've got to go or else I'm going to punch the fucking computer and kill it.
Hegemone posted on Oct 21, 2009
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simplyconfused said on Oct 21, 2009....
No! Don't kill your bretherin!Now, get a piece of paper, tack it to the wall and say "Dad, any shit you need to pile on me, write it here, and a date so it will be done before then since your to fucking incompetent to do it for yourself.."Maybe change the words.. but, seriously he's a big boy he can get a card, and mail it himself... -
Hegemone said on Oct 21, 2009....
Simply - Oh how I wish I could do that. Honestly, when we finally move out, if he acts like a fuck tard ... I'm pretty sure he's going to get a letter in the mail that'll look all official (because I have learned how to use my graphic design software quite well), and it'll inform him that he's being inducted into the Alcoholic-Abusive-Ignorant-Asshole Hall of Fame. He'll be able to call the toll free number 1-877-382-5968 (Fuck You) to receive further information. OK, well, I might not actually do that ... but it sure is fun to think about, lol. I think I might just buy him a lifetime supply of greeting cards for every occasion and tell him he can now shop in the comfort of his own home, via just picking one the fuck out by himself already! I mean geez, how bad could he screw it up? I doubt they have a 'Happy 90'th Birthday, don't forget to change your shit stained Depends today!' card. He'd find it if they did though ... geez. Lol, now I've gone and made myself laugh ... and everybody asleep ... shit, lol. -
starchini said on Oct 22, 2009....
aww...sorry hege.. -
Voltaire said on Oct 22, 2009....
Hege,
Its happened me dozen of times to, how I handle it?
A geologist sledge hammer and a few bigger rocks. :D
Nothing quite like it, I guarantee. ;)
Either that or I go out into the forest for a while, so he HAS to do it himself.
Often bringing some sausage and a knife, bbq. :D
Of course studies are a good excuse, to. :)
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silver_phoenix said on Oct 22, 2009....
Hege- I'm totally with you and on your side here. Why is it that father's can be so harsh or jerky to their daughters? Your title basically hits home with me. Almost every interaction with my father is like you and yours, it seems. I get pissed off too, and it makes it harder to push forward and move past it. -
Mr.Strange said on Oct 22, 2009....
YOU ARE AN AWESOME HUMAN, KEEP BEING YOU. -
CreativeWoman said on Oct 22, 2009....
(((((Hugs)))) Hege. I hope you can get out of there soon.
CW
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MsBradford07 said on Oct 22, 2009....
I would get that type of saying from my moher when she was high on something and she would just pissed me off. I totally understand how you feel. If you can, try to do something to get your mind off of it. -
Hegemone said on Oct 22, 2009....
Star - Par for the course I suppose, I'm over it now.
Voltaire - I'm thinking I may need to make 'work' an excuse all the time now and just claim that I'm working from home, and maybe I'll make up a bunch of other B.S. things that are on my mind from work because I've gotten new responsibilities, and since I'm pondering starting my own branch off business. Good ideas definitely, thank you.
Silver - I felt the same way about your most recent post, in the way you described you and your dad as of late, and how you spoke to your grandma. I feel the same way in my scenario. Also, that if my grandma was here my dad would be on his best behavior, even if he wasn't fundamentally changing, as long as it kept me out of his targets that would be OK. I just don't understand how he can even presume to think it's OK to act the way he does.
Mr.Strange - Thank you, and you're quite an interesting guy yourself, keep it up.
CW - Me too, boy am I working on it.
MsBradford - That's just what I did. I got off of here so I wouldn't keep dwelling and I read for a while, just to remove myself from the scenario, and then I decided I was NOT going to let him put me in a shitty mood. He doesn't have the right.
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Voltaire said on Oct 23, 2009....
Hegemone,
You can bet work is a good reason and accepted by most adults. ;)
Well if your pondering on starting your own business I would suggest to do some research especially if there is a "good" market for the product/service your thinking to offer.
I grew up in the business world, let me know if I could help you.
I am used to Sweden but I have plenty ideas and much knowledge to share.
Take care,
Voltaire
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Hegemone said on Oct 23, 2009....
Voltaire - Well thank you so much. I'm dabbling and researching with graphic design and web design, things of that nature. I'm still in the very early phases of even contemplating doing it, such as seeing if I can afford the expense because there are a lot of things I'll need to invest in first. I'm lucky currently to be working in a graphic design/webmaster/marketing position so I'm learning the ropes, but I'm not running the business, so there's that aspect, and pricing is a whole 'nother thing too. That's way far off though. I'll keep you in mind if I get this idea to any sort of further progressive phase, thank you again. :-) -
Voltaire said on Oct 24, 2009....
Hege,
Ah graphic design. I happen to know a few chaps who work with it, their best tip is to "play" forward the results. You know experiment.
And marketing, I've been in there for a short while. And I love it, its a good challenge.
Yes, your welcome any time.
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javadewd said on Oct 29, 2009....
Nobody dicks you like family. They pass the buck, and it's your fault that they're caught. Reminds me of the story of Phil McCracken. -
Mr.Strange said on Oct 29, 2009....
Java, how do you sleep at night?
You have so much sunshine coming out of every orphase!
*smile*
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Hegemone said on Oct 29, 2009....
Voltaire - Thank you. Experimenting is definitely a good idea, and I think that comes with being creative, which you need to be if you're going to follow persuit with something like this. I just hope I can keep up.
Java - True ... I swear, that's a running theme with me and those around me.
Mr.Strange - He sleeps? No, he does, after he's exhausted and hasn't got any energy left. Poor guy.
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javadewd said on Oct 30, 2009....
Strange, I sleep with my wife by my side, at least two cats at my feet. Every once in a while I'll shove some pillows underneith a thigh and I'm really comfortable when my wife is facing away from me so that I can spoon her. There's always the whole "hair" thing, though. Her hair (on her head, pervs!) sometimes gets inhaled. Why do you ask? Are the moose not satisfying you enough lately? Perhaps you should consider something within your own species...
Hege, dear, it's a matter of hard truths. You just have to state them at the right moment [so always have them rehearsed in your head and on the tip of your tongue when they enter the room] and then shield yourself from their response, which is to then make you feel guilty about pointing out their short-comings. I went through this with my wife, because her family are infamous for doing the same shit to her [and attempted to do it to me, which was met with swift and deliberate action that led to their defeat]. I swear, she would have made a good Catholic the way her parents always made her feel responsible for their failures, especially after her brother dropped dead about a year ago.
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Hegemone said on Oct 30, 2009....
Java - That is what I'm working on, just trying to sort of put up a shield against them so that I'm prepared and ready to sort of cast off whatever BS they try to fling my way because they can't handle it. Thank you for the words of advice. :-) -
javadewd said on Oct 30, 2009....
It takes an offensive (in more ways than one) move to push such attacks on your person back. It isn't really "mind over matter" as much as it's "mind your own damn business" or "mind over what really doesn't matter." I had to raise my parents for more than a few years while they have been separating, so I know it's like disciplining kids, but rewarding bad behavior on their part only leads to them becoming more brazen. It's just another way of cutting the cord. -
Hegemone said on Oct 30, 2009....
Java - True enough words, that's for sure, and I suppose I hadn't really looked at it that way. I know I'm slowly, gradually seeing that just not buying into the crap is helping, whereas before I would've jumped right in and given them their way, now I'm sort of refusing, distancing myself, not getting involved in the drama, and it's not been so bad.
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