Oh, wait. I already have that!
But, see, the reason I bring it up this way is that, somehow or another, this amazing woman I already have isn't what I've been trained to want. She's blonde and voluptuous, if not bordering on chubby. But - oh my fucking God - the chemistry my body has with hers!
However, I've apparently been trained to want a useless-save-for-one-thing-and-even-that-is-probably-being-generous mindless anorexic black-haired twit with a PhD in melancholic femme fatalia.
You know what I'm sayin'?
So, here's the thing: how do I unlearn that nonsense? How do I stop having automatic/autonomic gut-wrenching loss of breath over what I truly do not want?
