This saturday Remington Cruz is having is 5 month Birthaversary.  It is astounding how fast time goes by.  It seems like just yesterday I was sitting indian style on my bed at 3am with Remington hanging from my nipple and Phil snoring beside me, both oblivious to the tears of exhaustion streaming down my face.  At that time I thought "omg, I cant wait till he is big enough to sleep through the night", or "please, God, let him be 3 months old already". 

And bam!  Before I knew it, he was sleeping all night long and we both were quite relieved.  Now look, he gonna be 5 entire months old.  I cant believe it.  I kinda miss breastfeeding into the wee hours of the morning now.  I wish I woulda stuck with it, I cant blame myself, my stupid nipples made breastfeeding almost impossible, but I wish I would stuck it out a little longer.  Ill never get to do it again.  Makes me kinda sad.

Looking at his newborn pictures compared to now, its astounding how much he has grown into himself.  Hes so smart, so clever, so funny, so sweet, so energetic, so quiet, so fucking adorable.  Im so proud of him.  Hes going to grow up into quite an impressive young man.  I love him so very much. 

I think now is the most fun.  Hes big enough now that its not mind numbingly exhausting to care for him, yet he still needs me.  Now we can have fun together.  He laughs at me, I dance for him, we dance together, he cries when I leave the room and that makes me feel important.  He helps me cook supper and do the dishes.  He asks to be fed and changed and lets me know when he is bored and its time to play. 

Now is when I wish time would stop.  He could be 5 months old forever as far as im concerned.  Hes not yet mobile, but is able to inch his way around.  Oh we have so much fun flying through the living room and laughing in the mirror.  He absolutly loves to play with his puppy lily. 

I love to take him out in public and everyone stops when they see him to "ooo" and "ahh".  I love to hear people tell me how adorable he is and so cute and tell me that they love his hair.  Ive had people insist on me taking him out of his car seat at the grocery store so that they can hold him.  Complete strangers.  Yup, hes pretty damn cute ; )

Phil and I are going to take him bowling for his 5 month birthaversary.  I think he will really like the noises and to see the balls rolling down the lanes.  I think it would be educational and fun. 

He didnt care much for his 4 month birthaversay picnic, he wasnt interested in the ducks and geese and the mosquitos were out for blood.  We wont do that again until hes bigger.  But bowling.  I think he will enjoy that, and dad and mom sure will enjoy a night out.  : )  Maybe Ill find little baby bowling shoes and let him push a ball down the lane himself.  I bet he could do it.