It’s a peaceful morning so far and I’m determined for it to progress throughout the day.  It’ll be sort of a busy one, but sort of not.  I’ve got a bunch of cleaning to do as usual, and I’m also getting the bug up my butt to do some more in depth cleaning with the purpose of getting rid of some more damned clutter that I’m tired of looking at.  Also, I’m damned and determined to get the office looking a little better because currently it’s just not the way I want it.  There is not enough storage in there for the various types of paper, supplies, etc. that are in there and I’d like to brain storm some ideas on how I can efficiently and easily make a new system for in there so everything can be gotten at a moment’s notice, but so it’s not crammed in this crevice, that crevice, or laying on top of a surface that needs it.

Beyond all of that, I’m cooking today.  It’s spaghetti time again, and I don’t mean Ragu, I mean the real stuff that’ll take me a few hours to make.  I’ve got to hit the store and get some more parmesan cheese and garlic bread before I get cooking too.  We can’t forget those, because that’d be almost criminal in this house.  I know it’ll all get done, I’m just waiting for my dad to get his ass up out of bed so I can start the cleaning because otherwise if I just start cleaning while he’s still in bed I’ll wake him up and he’ll be in a grumpy mood, thus making my intentions for all of today to be good even harder.  Why make it harder when I can just patiently wait and get some other things out of the way first.

I had a strange dream last night, and I’m not quite sure what to make of it.  Right now I’m looking up some dream interpretation websites to see what I can find out because there are three elements of the dream that are sticking out to me.  One element was that we were in a very large house, but the inside was all small and cramped.  Another is dogs, tons of dogs, all supposed to be mine, but some of them were dogs I’d never seen before, and others were dogs I’ve had in the past.  The third element was the really weird one, and that was that I had cancer and had to keep getting these treatments at home through a tube right in the big artery in my leg.  Strange indeed, I’m curious to see what I’ll find.  Explore with me?

To see a dark, eerie or confining room, denotes that that you feel trapped or repressed in a situation.

o       This could fit with a number of scenarios going on in my life I suppose.  The rooms in the house were terribly cramped and uncomfortable.

To see a new house in your dream, indicates that you are taking on a new identify and developing new strengths. You are trying to be more emotionally mature about things.

o       It was a new house, but in the dream I also knew it was mine, it was home.  I suppose some changes are happening whether I see it or not.  Interesting.

To see a fence in your dream signifies an obstacle or barrier that may be standing on your path. You may feel confined and restricted in expressing yourself. Are you feeling fenced in some situation or confined in some relationship?  Alternatively, it may symbolize a need for privacy. You may want to shut off the rest of the world.

o       This works on all of these different possibilities, because in a way there are obstacles in our path, yet there are also areas in my life where I feel kind of stuck, and there is a definite need for privacy.

To dream that you are driving a car denotes your ambition, your drive and your ability to navigate from one stage of your life to another. Consider how smooth or rough the car ride is. If you are driving the car, then you are taking an active role in the way your life is going.

o       I was trying to park my car in a difficult place that really I knew I couldn’t park but still wanted to anyway just because I could.  The interpretation also mentions if you see a parked car it might mean you’re trying to slow down and enjoy things in life, which I feel like I have been trying to do lately.  Maybe that’s why I envisioned TRYING to park the car, and not seeing the car parked, because I’m still only trying.

To see a dog in your dream, symbolizes intuition, loyalty, generosity, protection, and fidelity. The dream suggests that your strong values and good intentions will enable you to go forward in the world and bring you success. Alternatively, it indicates a skill that you have ignored or forgotten.  To see a German Shepherd in your dream highlights your protective instincts and attentiveness to a situation.  This is no time for you to be nervous and/or lose control.

o       This is interesting, and yes, one of my dogs was a German Shepherd, so that’s even more interesting.  There were LOTS of dogs too, so I wonder just how well that equates.

To dream that you have cancer denotes hopelessness, grief, self-pity, and unforgiveness. You feel you are wasting your life away. This dream also represents areas in your life which are bothering you, disturbing you, and hurting you in some emotional way.  To dream that you are being treated for cancer signifies a positive change in your life.

o       I suppose that this definitely works too, especially considering my state of mind near the end of the night, mixed with all the current events in my life, but at least there is positive change involved, and I was getting LOTS of treatment so maybe that means LOTS of positive change.