Can't keep control, can't keep track of where it's traveling
I got my heart but my heart is no good
And you're the only one that's understood
I come along but I don't know where you're taking me
I shouldn't go, but you're wrenching, dragging, shaking me
Turn off the sun, pull the stars from the sky
The more I give to you, the more I die
And I want you
You are the perfect drug,
The perfect drug
You make me hard when I'm all soft inside
I see the truth when I'm all stupid eyed
The arrow goes straight through my heart
Without you everything just falls apart
My blood wants to say hello to you
My feelings want to get inside of you
My soul is so afraid to realize
How very little good is left of me
And I want you
You are the perfect drug,
The perfect drug
Take me with you
Without you
Without you everything falls apart
Without you, it's not as much fun to pick up the pieces
It's not as much fun to pick up the pieces
--------------------------- NIИ - The Perfect Drug
I don't really know what to write about. This song makes me feel empty inside, though it kicks major ass. And I can really relate to most of Reznor's work. The reason it makes me feel blue is 'cause it's exactly how I feel about the certain somebody I'm crazy about. I'm not going into details just yet, since I'm not mentally stable enough to backtrack.
I love her. I really fucking do. 'Cause if it was just about the sex, I wouldn't call her as much as I do. I wouldn't listen to her or have long conversations with her as much as I do. But somehow I feel like it's not enough. I feel like she doesn't feel the same about me as she did about him. I know how selfish that sounds, but I can't help but feel jealous of that asshole. She still feels for the guy who kept hurting her over and over again (nothing physical though). And she forgave him every time. I just can't understand why...
She forgave me too, after all the stupid emotional shit I put her through. And she's asking me to give it some time and patience. She say's she'll get over him soon enough, though I'm sure it's not gonna happen, since she did love the guy. And apparently, women feel love way more intensely than men do. Finding a man who genuinely falls in love is rare, or so they say.
I know it's stupid to mope around about shit like this, but I can't help it. I feel like I'm not good enough. The more I try, the harder it gets. "The more I give to you, the more I die..."
So I guess I should stop trying? And, if the inevitable happens, move on? Heh, easier fuckin' said than done. Time doesn't heal all wounds. People aren't all the same. So the phrase, "time heals all wounds" can't apply to everyone. You either get used to the pain, or become indifferent to it. It never heals.
Guess I'll just have to see where it ends. Just hope it ends well for the both of us, even if things go bad.
However far away
I will always love you
However long I stay
I will always love you
Whatever words I say
I will always love you
I will always love you...
