Back again.

Fuckers keep pushing me. Haven't been able to sleep well for days, so I'm looking forward to a long night's sleep.

I'm getting my muse back, but can't say I've improved. Most of my pieces revolve around life, drugs, hatred, depression and love. I just can't seem to find the right words sometimes.

Music inspires me. I miss the old days when a friend would play a riff and I'd make up a song in no time. But those days are over... hopefully not for good.

I wrote these while serving time:

An insult
My fellow beings, listen forth
I come to you bearing gifts of hatred
Listen as I pour my heart out
For these words I hold sacred
There was a time when myth and legends
Were terrorized by your treason
Society is but a waste
And your lives now hold no reason...

[The world has been fucked over by your hypocrisy!]

I have seen so many dead
Without a cause or intervention
Fortunes wasted over lands
That never belonged to you
You use the cloak of faith as reason
You point the finger at the righteous
You nag and wallow in self-pity
Right after you have wronged millions...

Fuck your lies and your pride
Your greed exceeds your rights to survive...

I cannot say I'm sorry
I won't apologize
For this very soil holds a grudge against you
And when it turns its back on you,
I won't be surprised...

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A fading shadow passes through
Wandering on to its own self-indulgence
Neglecting all that pass by
Just to see what lies behind those hateful eyes...

Aching bones and whispering voices
Doomed to stay true to one's own choices
Overcome by the thought of an end
With a never-ending show of pretense...

Pain swallowed by pride
Mind at wits end
Sketching out the probabilities
That seethe from within...

I feel the air in my bones
As my soul rots deep within
Life as a pointless journey I show
For all I do is give in...

Hold me back
Hold me close
Cover me from everything
'Cause it's all a fucking lie...

Reason
The heart that coincides with patience
Dying to understand the mind's eye
It falls beneath the surface
Only to rise up again, reborn...

Soul surrenders this therapeutic reunion
Of mind and body combined
Praising those who shelter themselves
Away from harm and the divine...

Why?

Spilling blood unjust
Waiting for the truth to show
Separated from the norm
And awaiting that gentle sigh
Of the inevitable storm...

I am but a weakling
Who cannot raise a sound
Claiming my own reasoning
As a source of peace...

Judge only those who pretend
For if you miss out
You'll never know
You'll never know the difference...

Push
It's not like I can't
But I wouldn't know
Too hard to forgive myself
'Cause I feel so low
Pretend like I'm happy
To help you carry on
Never to see you
Never to hear you... scream...

Too blittered and torn
I'm high on your ignorance
Materialistic one
You need to be shown
The way to your end
A bittersweet finito that I have made...

A little bit more
A little bit harder
Just one more score
Left to settle with her
But can't take
This unbearable sting
Before it's too late
I need to know what you mean...

I'm not okay...

Blood, push out
I need to hear that scream!
Push out the flow deep in
Around the bend within
Scrape away the pain and lies
Of happiness
'Cause it just don't fly
With bygones and insolence
You can't deny the fact that you fucking lied!

Go ahead!!
Go ahead and fuck with my head!!

MPD
The words that rain
Flow away into skin
Decay of simple complications
Seem to breathe reality
Face of one so deep
Trace of neglect beneath
Displays of ignorance felt
Made a whole world cave in...

You got another thing comin'
If you think you can score!
If you feel like shit right now
I bet of it you didn't before
When you were ignored!

A space on the reins
Full of memories hate
The conditional changes
Pull over...

You got another thing comin'
If you think you can score!
If you feel like shit right now
I bet of it you didn't before...

When you were ignored
You made me come apart
A glass full of shadows
Smashed to rot
A break in the spell
It's over, let me in
A murdering suicide
Is better off...

My friend, he said
"I live within you
I tried to save you"
But now he's dead...

Change
It's not like the days stop passing by
As the thoughts of you never end
In my life I saw into the eyes
The eyes that showed never-ending pretense...

And as the wind comes storming through these walls
That I put up so's not to hear the call
I wither away
Until I find another mind to change...

Dawn of another void of pain
The indescribable thoughts I've trained
An unmistakable voice of reasoning
Is clearly fading away
As I float on my only cloud
You swim on back for more
My source of hatred subsides once again
To be replaced by pain once again...

And as the walls come crashing down
On my once peaceful ground
I wither away
Until I find another mind to change...

My thoughts of you stay endless
Until I find my peace of mind again...

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