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ever since high school i have a diary...
 
i wrote my thoughts, my emotions and my anger on those pages...
 
until i discovered blogging...
 
i still keep my diary and wrote stuff on it but not like before...
 
for a few weeks i felt like life has changed dramatically for me...
 
in the outisde i'm still the same queenie you guys know... but inside i know ive changed...
 
i know i have grown...
 
for a few weeks now i'm focusing more on my life...
 
the change i'm planning to take. which is finnaly has some actions to it...
 
and the change i made to myself in order to handle the change in my life...
 
and one of them is being 100% true to myself...
 
i need an outlet. and since now i don't have a computer at work i need something to let go the emotions inside of me...
 
at first i wrote anger on my notebook. when i feel intense anger i wrote it out...
 
when i felt intense love i wrote it out...
 
but then i realize that words just came out of me...
 
like what i'm doing right now. i feel like my fingers have a life of their own...
 
they just keep on typing and words are just coming out of my mouth as i type them...
 
i realize a few days ago that i really don't have much talent in life...
 
i can't sing, draw or whatever art form there is...
 
all i know is that everytime i write something for myself. i have created art.
 
art that only i could really enjoy...
 
and at those moments that i write for myself. the best of comes out... the best because it is real and it is for me...
 
it was a lesson i learned that i'm applying in my life...
 
to be the best that you can be you have to be honest with yourself and real in everything you do... :-)
 
i admit my perspective in life changed becuase of this when i started writing and living for myself...
 
i rant less... ( i still rant but not like the same) i mean i still have those moments of anger and rage in me. but it only last for a couple of moments and i'm okay afterwards...
 
and what surprise me the most is that some people around me notice it. well the way they act toward me changed...
 
i guess if the positive energy came from within...  it changed everything outside... :-)
 
i think this is also a way for me to grow. it's a way for me to prepare for what will come in the future...
 
and what a future it would be...
 
i'll still blog... maybe i could share to you guys some stuff that i wrote down...
 
i like sharing things that i learn.
 
so i'll...
 
 
 
 
 
keep on blogging!!!
 
 


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  • mixednuts said on Oct 15, 2009....
    You do have talents! Believe in yourself!
  • Hegemone said on Oct 15, 2009....
    I agree that you've got talents.  I used to keep a journal too, and then stopped shortly after I graduated high school.  I love how you've grown so much more positive.  And yeah, I'm learning as of late too that when I just keep positive and force through the negativity with positivity, it definitely has an effect on everything else in my life in a good way.  I'm glad you're going through the same!
  • Me-Myself&I said on Oct 15, 2009....

    hey you, come here .... i want to box your jaws young lady! ;~)

    queenie, what the hell! you have talents, writing for one.

    give life a chance to show you, or convince you of the talentS you have. ok. *smile* xo

  • UnicornForm said on Oct 15, 2009....
    you are a great writer i couldent have explained so clearly this change youve made
     
    and ive made to :)
     
    Youll realize our talents one day
  • CayenneMan said on Oct 15, 2009....
      I'm impressed by you're communication skills alone. I speak several languages myself but that's my little secret  :o)  .  What is Tag-o-Matic ?
  • wombat said on Oct 15, 2009....

    I recently wrote about an artist that described the meaning of the word "beautiful."  I wish I could remember which one said it  (Monet?  Van Gogh?  Not sure...)  But I remember the quote:

    When you can't take away anything, or add anything else.

    Writing falls into that category of "art."

    Keep on writing, whether in a diary, here, or anywhere else.  You know when it's right.

    C-Man:  (I wondered what Tag-O-Matic was, too...who's tag and what it might lead to?)

  • speaking_up said on Oct 15, 2009....
    Queen...we all have talent!!!!  There are many things I can do, but you cannot (well, maybe not many); and there are many things you can do but I can't. 
     
    Since you love to blog I consider that a talent in of itself...we are the minority - most do not even pick up a magazine to read let alone write out their own thoughts. 
     
    Wombat - OH MY....LOVE IT! 

    When you can't take away anything, or add anything else.

    Writing falls into that category of "art."

    Is that why when I want to write a really good article it takes me 15 hours or more?  I use to be a columnist (business related topics) and I would sweat and bleed for hours until not a thing more could be done to perfect what I wanted to say.  Then, and only then would I give my piece to the publisher (I was rarely to never edited which I did take as a compliment).

    But the writing of the articles always sucked the life out of me in my need for perfection.

    I told my ex husband, "I'm either an 'artist type of writer' - OR a shitty one that can't spill out words without analyzing or manovering, or giving up completely to start all over...

    I like blogging because I have no pressure to write good (smiles). 

     

  • wombat said on Oct 15, 2009....

    (speaking up: )   I am still stuck on even blogging here with the "perfection of writing" and the "with the nothing else can be added or taken away" concept.  That's why I love the edit feature.

    Glad to meet a real writer, and hear some feedback on what that's like.

  • ellamae14 said on Oct 15, 2009....
    I also have a journal of my own queen, I have several notebooks kept that has my written anger, frustrations, success, happiness in life. It's kinda more dramatic there because i'm too lazy to change anything I write there, It's not edited like my posts here. :) when i finally had a computer I type in the computer and saved it in floppy disks. I still have all of it, and sometimes I'm shocked to discover who I was before and the difference from the person that I am right now. Keep writing, I find that when i spend quiet times to think my life through, I get more appreciative and grateful so i write about it. :) and expressing yourself in any way is pure unadulterated art in itself.
  • scipio said on Oct 16, 2009....
    Nice to put your thoughts down on the paper. it is better to get out those pent up feelings on the paper than on the person. Ella's comment above is appropiate. I don't have anything much to add - except as you said "keep on blogging"

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