my feelings. they are strong.
so strong i can't bear them sometimes.

i got in an argument...well...more like a mostly friendly discussion with my ex boyfriend today, about the differences in how we argue.

or rather, the differences in how we see things that end up in an arguement.

i believe that when two people are a couple, they have obligation to each other to be very open to the other persons opinion.'

whether or not they have already thought of the scenario before or NOT.

he's got some kind of mind...it's always going, chances are he's already mulled the situation over YEARS ago...come to a logical conclusion about the outcome.....and then wants to act on it.

well, sorry, i don't work that way, and i feel completely dismissed when he expects that i do work that way...or expects me to change to work that way.

so anyway, we were talking and he in a really sing song mimicy voice says'
"i can't worry about evewy bodies widdle feewings all the time" that hurt SO much.

i mean......yes, that's probably a pretty accurate assesment when it comes to most people.

but he KNOWS how much my emotions hurt me. he knows about the pain i go through with being full of feelings i can't act on.

he knows how much it hurts when my feelings are hurt....even if they "shouldn't" be hurt.......it's IMMENSE pain.......

so to minimalize it that was was really contemptful.

if that's even a word. *sigh*

i still love him.....

i just wish he wasn't such an introvert.

i need people....and no one seems to satisfy like his company.

even when we have 4 hour long arguments....not that today was.....

but a 4 hour long one is better than nothing. And most of the time recently, it is nothing.