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You know what?
 
I try and I try to just be here and have fun, but I often end up feeling like it was work, in spite of my claims that it's just nice to be here and write what's on your mind.
 
I get paranoid.  I get upset.  I get lost.  I get confused.  I get apologetic for things I didn't even do.  Sometimes I get mad at myself for letting it get to me. 
 
I guess the worst is getting paranoid that someone might think I did something I didn't. 
 
Next is the guilt over writing a post, getting comments, then not getting back to answer right away.
 
Next is wondering how I got into something that can bring out these worries----and still want to be here.
 
But I do.  Want to be here, I mean.
 
I'm not much of anybody, but here I sometimes think I am. 
 
 
 


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  • CreativeWoman said on Oct 13, 2009....
    You are a very nice person, wombat. 

    CW
  • Me-Myself&I said on Oct 13, 2009....

    howdy. sigh........you know something, first i think you are a down to earth somebody! ;~) i have enjoyed your posts for a year plus now. i have not changed my mind on that.

    for being paranoid, gigling.... yup, i can relate on many levels here. i get upset too, words are not enough sometimes to know if things are on the up and up. like ....wow are you for real. words can be cheap ....anyways, thats when i feel guilty and upset because you can take things/words two ways sometimes. you really don't know the person....not just thru words, for me. i need the body language too!

    hell i say things here and later think if so or so took it wrong or they think i'm a squirrel! but i am what i am, so i try to let it be and not let it get to me. we can type away here on sc and still don't know a person for real. no matter how much imformation in written here.

    sometimes i think, what the hell, what are they trying to say. lol.... sometimes my comments on their post makes me think.... what the hell, what am i talking about! *smile*

    sorry for rattling. we must be on the main wave-link. *smile*  i hope all is well for you. stay warm and happy Wombat. cheers.... here is to you, a somebody! xo

     

     

  • Twylarants said on Oct 13, 2009....
    I get confused too, Wombie, but everyone here seems to be very patient so I don't let it bother me.
    Not long after I started here (OMG, I've been here over 2 years!)...anyway....some guy who is no longer here sent me a pm telling me I talked too much. Hah, like I don't know that, you silly man!
    And I realized how little he knew about me if he hoped to hurt my feelings because my first thought when I read his pm wasn't "poor me, nobody likes me", it was "F***k you and the horse you rode in on!"
    You know what soulcast is to me? A bunch of friends sitting around talking.  Sometimes you have something interesting to talk about and sometimes you don't. Sometimes you disagree with something someone says, but you're still friends.

    I don't always reply to comments on one of my posts because I forget I wrote it.
    Hang in there, Wombie, and don't leave because then I'll be confused all by myself.
  • Hegemone said on Oct 13, 2009....
    Wombie, you know, on the one hand I wish ya didn't have to have such anxiety over it, but on the other hand, I guess that's part of what makes you YOU.  I'm glad you stick around, you've always got something neat to talk about, and hey, no worries on not getting back to your comments right away.  I think it's a pleasant surprise to be cruising the 'My Comments' page and see a post of yours pop up that's a few days old.  Gives me a reminder and another chance to read it again.  :-D
  • Twylarants said on Oct 13, 2009....
    You know what makes me paranoid? When I go to "my conversations" and see nothing but "...by Twylarants" all the way down the page.
  • D6fer said on Oct 13, 2009....
    you know.....for the most part I see this place as one big dysfunctional family.....we may squabble from time to time.....we may not like one person or another....but we all like being part of the family.
  • moonriver said on Oct 13, 2009....
    psst. wombat.
    these days i read too much, if that's at all imaginable.
    so just get out there on the floor and dance like no one's watching.
    sooner or later someone will dance with you.
    and leave the paranoia to our sc friend queenie.
    doesn't suit you anyway :-)

  • bhalah said on Oct 14, 2009....
    Well again  i have to said, that all what you said, i am agree whith, here you talk a bit of few things, whitch for me, it is a real civic work we all are doing here, seat around and talk, isent easy to find at the entorn place, so here we express, the ones we dont as a citizens on the road... So for me its, exacly this, an oportunity of a civic round people talking toghether,
     
    As bad or good we are, all have samething in comun, we like to talk, have conversations..
     
    This is nice, and sametimes you are loosing time, but all gets what it needs, never mind, but here theres a toul, which Soulcast, even if i think i know, is probably one of the post nicks, realy make me think to much, not always, couse the posters have an important place..
     
    For me is a tipe of civic school.
  • Cassy said on Oct 14, 2009....
    I work and re-read wondering if the words really say what I want. It's fun and exhausting.  :-)  Thank you.
  • Twylarants said on Oct 14, 2009....
    Lol, Mr6...a dysfunctional family, I like that. Can I be the crazy Aunt?
  • starchini said on Oct 14, 2009....
    u rock
     
  • abbonzai said on Oct 14, 2009....
    u great person
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  • FutureGoddess said on Oct 14, 2009....
    Hi Wombie!!  I think you are more than just a somebody - you're a special somebody and don't you forget it!
  • wombat said on Oct 14, 2009....

    I feel absolutely stupid for writing that post, but I guess it's ok afterall.  I wasn't fishing for compliments--I was just feeling "off" last night when I wrote it.  I would delete it but I would be deleting comments by you nice folks who took the time to read and comment.  But I am feeling a bit ashamed of myself, anyway!

    Can I just say one group thank you and let this post slide away?  I read every comment and I appreciated them one and all.

    (I do like the "dysfunctional family" concept.  I fit right in, then!  So then you can forgive me for scurrying away from this one, I hope.)  And I may take a few days here to regroup, but I'll be back later.

    Thanks, guys!

  • HoleInTheCosmos said on Oct 14, 2009....
     
    There are no contracts here to be broken. I've neglected to make a new post for months, but other things occupy my hours. We have to view this as a sort-of "timeless" place. I like to comment on a post sometimes even when it's an old, oldie that I just discovered. Why not? Do I expect anyone to reply? Naw, but I felt like adding my two cents anyway. This place is pretty much the Great Equalizer as far as anyone being more of a "somebody" than anybody else.
     
  • moonriver said on Oct 14, 2009....
    don't delete anything, my friend.
    dysfunctional families are cool.

  • woman said on Oct 14, 2009....
    You are an important part of SC Wombie. You bring humor and gentleness. You HAVE to stay and be a part of the crazy blend of people here. You're stuck!
  • MsBradford07 said on Oct 14, 2009....
    You have always been nice to me in the situations that I write about and appreciate the things you say.
  • Lucytorial said on Oct 14, 2009....
    Wombie ~ Did you know that you are an endangered species? precious and very rare, very important.
     
    Like your name sake you like to hide sometimes but your nose finds a way to come out in the sun and play every now and then - as part of this disfunctional family you are more than someone you are Wombat.
  • mousenphonic said on Oct 14, 2009....

    Sit down, relax and take a deep breath while I pour you some tea.  Trust me, we all get a little fed up with this place at some point. But your not here to blog for us, your here to blog for you. (((Hug))) Hope you're already feeling better.

  • wombat said on Oct 15, 2009....

    Ok---I decided to answer each of you wonders afterall, but I will be missing at least during the week for a few weeks coming up.  (overtime at work) But I may pop in for a few on the weekends.  By the middle or the end of November, I will be unemployed again, as I plan to quit my job and stay home this winter.  My plan is to work on my writing, in which case I shouldn't be on SC too much, but who knows?  I like it here!

    CW:  Thanks, lady.  I try to be!

    MM&I:  I am too flighty to be "down to earth."  Ha...But I know what you mean.  I'm glad you got what I meant!  It's ok if you are sometimes a "squirrel"  (LOL)  as long as I can be a wombat!  I get all those feelings you described at one time or another.  I'm just kind of wishing I hadn't expressed them in a post like this, but I did, so there.  Thank you all for saying it's ok!  And I hope you're doing ok lately.  I haven't kept up at all like I wanted.
     
    Twylarants:  I can't believe someone had the gall to send such a PM!  I would have been at first all paranoid and upset, myself.  It's hard to really jump that line and mean it when you say you "don't let things get to you" here.  I guess I internalize things too much, but sometimes things happen.  I got all paranoid because I was afraid someone would think I had done something here the other night, after reading a post and some comments.  The only reason I was worried is because I was logged on here at the time!  I'll be barely in and out here starting next week anyway, but I will go to bed early for my overtime wishing I could be on SC!  Then I'll be back to being confused along with ya'!
     
    Hegemone:  I don't know why I get such anxiety over it sometimes.  I guess because it's such a large part of my life now?  Along with the fact that, like it or not, I do feel I'm in the circle of people here---and like in real life---I can get paranoid about where my place is.  You guys just made me feel like I have a place, so thank you!  I don't always get to everyone's posts all the time, but I do read and scan when I can, and I thank you for reading me when you can, too!
     
    Twylarants:  I find myself on "that page" quite often!
     
    D6fer:  Yes, I like the "dysfuntional family" thing you said.  I fit like a glove!
     
    moonriver:  I will dance...alone or with a partner or line dancing with you all.  Can't stop the paranoia, though!  Ha...
     
    bhalah:  I understand how you feel.  I learn a lot here, too!
     
    Cassy:  That's my point exactly!  It's supposed to be all fun, but making sure you make sense, keep up with everyone, and not step on anyone's feet along the way.....it can be more like work than fun!
     
    Twylarants:  Yes, you can be the "Crazy Aunt!"  I'll be the insane cousin!
     
    starchini:  Thank you!  That was sweet.
     
    abbonzai:  Thank you, too!
     
    FutureGoddess:  I am blushing.  I do hate that it sounded like I wanted compliments.....but I'll sure take them!  Thank you!
     
    HoleInTheCosmos:  I like what you said and thank you.  I try to feel that way all the time, but sometimes I get a little sideways on my thinking.  Thanks for the reminder of how it should be.
     
    moonriver:  I only wanted to delete this post, but decided not.  I deleted all my posts once before, and wish I hadn't.  I would have to be really upset to do that again!
     
    woman:  Wow.  That was a really nice thing to say.  I'm glad to bring humor when I can, and I do always try to be nice, so what can I say?  You're spot on!  Ha...
     
    MsBradford07:  I've always tried to click on your posts and follow your interesting life.  I have this picture of you in my head of you, carrying your business/book satchel, trudging uphill toward a better day.  Must have been from earlier posts I read.  I always wish you fortune and happiness.
     
    Lucy:  I sure hope I am an endagered species...ha.  There shouldn't be too many of me around.  But you are right.  I sometimes have to go into my hidey-hole.  But I always like to pop my head up and see what the rest of you are doing!  And I really do, shamefully, like my "Wombat" name here.  I am nowhere being an Aussie like you, and wasn't even think of that.  But I sure do like being "Wombie!"
     
    mousenphonic:  I needed that tea and breather!  You are right, of course.  But maybe I just get too emotionally close and try too hard to be all things to all people?  Or maybe I'm just trying to fix myself from the inside out by being here?  Who knows....but I'm learning that whatever I do is ok as long as I am always truthful and kind.  I'm working on it!  Guess I just get my moods like everyone.
     
    Whew!  I got it all in on edit mode!   Thanks again, all. 
     
    Now I can get all paranoid that I am too late in replying individually and none of you will see it! 
     
    Just kidding.....I think!
     
    {{{{{{{{{Love to all,  Wombat}}}}}}}}}
  • mixednuts said on Oct 15, 2009....
    Take a deep breath and relax! If you don't want to comment you don't have to!!!
  • wombat said on Oct 15, 2009....

    Really?

    OOPS...I just did it again.........

    But I did take a deep breath, and coughed up the last 4 cigs.......but I hope you all at least got the gist of my meaning.  Hard to divide it up between "posting and not caring" and "posting and caring alot."

  • bhalah said on Oct 16, 2009....
    Whats the diference, betwin a peace of glass broked in plenty peaces, or a person broked into many peaces...? Which one is the wrong? ..
  • hairbrushedhubby said on Oct 17, 2009....
    hey Wombat, I like reading what you write over here in England too, so it's not a waste of time, stay with us and keep going.
  • speaking_up said on Oct 18, 2009....
    1ST  TRY
     
    I wrote the most brilliant response known to man and just as I was winding up the page flips and my post is gone...everyone in here would have been rolling on the floor laughing; I would have received an award and money for being such an amazing humor writer.
     
    2nd TRY
     
    So I'll just say I relate to what you wrote...blah...blah...blah (for another 15 minutes) then post goes GONE!
     
    3rd TRY
     
    ((((((((((((((Hugs))))))))))))))))
     
    *sigh*
  • Twylarants said on Oct 18, 2009....
    That's how you know you're an official S'caster, Speaking...when you pour your heart into a post or comment and soulcast eats it!
  • RollingC said on Oct 19, 2009....
    I like you Wombie....your " fears and worries " are quite normal you know.  I guess that's why I blog very little.
    Rc
  • wombat said on Oct 19, 2009....

    bhalah:  Interesting question!  I feel like the piece of glass broken into many pieces...but I'm still trying to see myself in the mirror.

    hairbrushedhubby:  Thank you from across the pond!  I'm not gone yet, or not even sure if I will be.  I just need so badly to be doing something else, but I still like this place way too much!

    speaking up:  Oh, I'm sorry about your comment being lost!  You know how many times that's happened to me?  I try to write a few words, hit edit, then usually I get more time to work on my comment.  Doesn't always work.  I really hate it when I write multiple comments to people on my post, hit submit, and it's cut off at the beginning!  What did I say to each one?  Can't remember now!

    But I'm taking your word for it, and laughing anyway, as if I had read it and busted a gut!  Thanks!

    Twylarants:  There you go!

    RollingC:  Glad you got what I meant.  I'm pretty lost here lately.  Part of me has trouble keeping up, even when I have time to be here.  The other part of me is just plain having trouble making time to be here.  But I don't want to let it all go.  If I (no when) I get serious about working on some writing projects, I will be typing fast, so I can get back and see who's done what lately!  What has this wonderful SC done to me?  Ha.....

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