Suicide hurts... everyone. To hear someone say that whomever commits suicide is being selfish, well I disagree. I think for people who can't walk in your shoes, who can't be you and live your life for you... I think for them to say LIVE no matter how much you're going through, because it will keep US from being sad (eventhough you're miserable) - I think that is being selfish. No one, absolutely no on can carry someone else's pain for them, nor can just anybody take it away in the majority of cases, and everyone's tolerance and opionion's are different. That's why some may not be able to understand, but I want to say that I do understand.

 

I understant that it's our own life and we should have the right to decide what's best. We didn't have to ask to come into the world, why should we need to ask to leave? We didn't need to ask if we could breathe, why should we need to seek permission or approval to stop breathing?  Nobody ever asked us if we wanted to come or if we wanted to breathe?

 

Also, I don't agree with those that want to label a person who is intelligent and mentally competent the label of being mentally ill if it's their decision to terminate their life. I know that it is possible to be sane, thinking rationally, being sure of what you want and why... not because you're mentally ill, but because you have carefully thought it through and are confident about what you decide. It just happens to be your stand for it, instead of against it. Let some people tell it, if you're against it then you're sane and therefore, not ill (only since it happens to be your oppinion in that favor).  

 

I have spoken to others about it in the past, so I know that I'm not the only one that feels this way. I have never, since childhood, known what it's like to want to live or to feel like there is real reason to. The people who want to live, well they may live on as others leave (by choice or other kind of death). No one lives forever and it's life that others must adjust and go on living.

 

Now, that I think about it at this very moment, it occurs to me that maybe some people are just afraid of not living anymore, afraid of death. Others are not afraid. I actually read a comment in another blog, the reader felt that people who commit suicide must already be like the "walking dead".

 

Think about it, like a zombie. A lifeless soul walking around, wanting to be able to rest in it's grave. Any zombie I've ever seen in the movies ached so much that to be walking around like a lifeless soul was ALWAYS far too, too unbearable.  

 

This is my "life" people. I could tell you more on how I even made it this far, but at this exact moment my future is very black. More than it's ever been. I see nothing, but thanks for reading.