Ok. So my cousin is in the hospital, very critically ill.  Part of me feels bad for him and definitely feel bad for his daughters.. but part of me is like.. "You did this to yourself!" cause he was a cocaine/pillpopper/whatever else floated his boat. And now he's SURPRISE having heart and vein problems.. circulation problems.  Had one of his toes amputated a few years back, and veins removed from his leg.
well this time.. he got injured.. shocked and didn't go see a doctor.. and got really sick.. my aunt noticed he had skin literally falling off of his arm and made him go to the emergency.
Comes to be, that his arm is so infected that its spread to other parts of his body and he got pneumonia. Puss is everywhere. They had to go and remove ALL the skin on his arm, said they want to amputate.
And they aren't doing anything till they see if he's going to keep living. He's on a ventilator now

He is 39.. THIRTY NINE.  This is what you young people don't realize can happen when you're doing all these drugs.
What really pisses me off is that the family KNOWS he abused.. but they blame his problems on 'hereditary' heart problems and circulation problems.  Well if that's the case.. why isn't my other male cousins having problems? I mean.. he has brothers, one of which is older than him.. and he has no 'hereditary problem' .. nor does my uncle or any of his boys. I HATE when I hear my mom trying to blame it on hereditary problems. IT WAS THE COCAINE!

I am torn though cause Its my family and I feel bad for his daughters who are going to be left behind at young ages. Their moms a user too and let her boyfriend abuse the girls. I'm talking.. threw a baby against the wall type of abuse.. that's why my cousin has custody.

....*sigh* anyhow.. so yeah.. I feel bad for the girls, and I'm very pissed off at my cousin for his choices. And I don't want my son feeling like that shit will just happen to him out of the blue cause my mother keeps talking about 'hereditary' shit.

*double sigh*