The best way to start every day is to look inthe mirror smile and say, wow I wasn't taken during the night, I'm alive and been given the chance to enjoy all of nature, see my family, friends, and to meet all of today's challenges coming my way, I feel great, let's get this day underway.
becouse, same day you wakeup, and think abaut all that shit you let to come in, in a very submisive way, so then you think you have things that pissed you of.. and you are just pissed of, i soupouse after a pissed of will come a big pain in the body, theres to much to remuve, or clean up, to change the pissed of, then another steap, and another and another more, each time depend on me, or us, or you, but what?
People hurt others...there are the hurters (who are just hateful in my view); and the hatee's.
Isn't there a song...some people like to be abused, some people like to abuse.
Anyway, my goal is to let go of anger and try to live my life with a litte bit of grace. I am fed up with being mad. Now that Mom died, this will be much much easier for me. Was it all my fault? No way. I was the abused child. It would be my fault if I kept this anger going though. That will only hurt me.
I am putting the bat down I hold over my head and not being so pissed at just being a human being with faults. When I get mad at others (rarely but justifibly usually...it takes me a long time to 'get it') I pick the bat up and smash the hell out of them as I do to myself.
It's complicated. First you find yourself in a world not of your own making, but within which you must deal with insufferable brain-washing and abuse from elders who, themselves, are entirely messed up. Then you must undergo a series of rises and falls through an unmapped maze of adolescence, maturity and old age. Finally, you must confront the absolute unknown qualities of your impending Death.
Starchini, in Remingtons world, nothing seem to pissed you of, or in the eggs shell of Lucitorial, everything seem like a forniture very nice polish, but dasent mean, if you can be observant a bit around, theres nothing to pissed you of..
sorry, doesn't apply to me, I wake up everyday and think, Thank you God for giving me this new day with it's laughs and challenges, I am going out to enjoy it.