I'm a working Mom, I have an advantage because I work from home, telecommute. The great side is I'm home with my one and only son, of 2. The bad news is, I'm home ALL the time. I manage our household, finances, cook meals, work a full time job and a part time job and manage to play with my son from time to time and color and puzzles, etc. No time for me. My husband manages and after 40 hours he's done, comes home and cleans the floors, laundry and cleans the kitchen if I cook. But its all so overwhelming. When we met, we were both fit, healthy, happy and now, i'm way overweight as is he. I LOVE my son, he is my miracle. I wasn't supposed to have children and here I have this wonderful little boy. I hate myself bc i'm always working, we never do anything fun, the bills are mounting and 3 nights this week, I just didin't cook and my husband doesn't know how and didn't even try. I'm overwhelmed and cry and don't know what to do. Am I whining? I look at the direction of our country and get depressed, i sit down to work for unappreciating fat cats and get depressed. I see the politics of the job and the girl who is at the bar at 5 w/ upper management (and also give handjobs and god knows what else) gets special treatment and now I'm doing her job and mine while she gets patted on the back but i'm ... just.. tired... and depressed... and have never been here before. I used to smile and laugh all the time. Now I only smile and laugh when my son does something ... my husband and I don't even talk anymore... I feel like I'm drowning and have no way out... I want to smile again, I want to laugh and I want to feel appreciated without prescription drugs....
Just a busy Mom's rant... I had to expose my soul and what i feel inside before i go crazy... ;(
BuggaBugMom posted on Oct 09, 2009
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BuggaBugMom said on Oct 15, 2009....
Ok, so I've called in sick the past 2 days and cleaned my entire house.. I feel better... somewhat... My husband is a permanent fixture to the sofa when he is home... we have espn and cable tv and i guess those are important to a man... I picked up my son today from school 2 hours early bc he is sick... again.. I want it to go away...
And then i got depressed about the public schools 'indoctrinating' our children so now i'm looking for a private school program or even into home school... I don't sit and watch Fox news 24/7 or rely on folks like Hannity and Beck for my views... but and this is a big but--sometimes I feel like we are in a surreal place in our history. We have our first black president (go USA) and he was to give us change (never said how or what but change) and now that i see HOW he is changing things, it mimics that of a young USSR or Hitler's Germany and THAT is a scary place. Where do WE go? Our country was the last place on earth to flee from religious persecution, government tyranny, etc and now... Here we are, slowing losing our right to free speech (because it could hurt someone's feelings) losing our right to be parents (being told you HAVE to have health insurance on your children or you lose them.. in that wonderful new health bill)... It seems we are dictated to more and more each day on what WE should do. You (govt') take our money, and think you know what to do with it better then we do, you (gov't) take over banks, and industry and then wonder why the economy hasn't turned around as fast as predicted, you take our jobs and send them south or over seas for cheaper labor, yet you allow unions to drive up the pay rate to where corporations have no choice but to send jobs elsewhere to save money.. business is business and now, people in our government DOWN on capitalism are making our government a big business (capital) talk about Irony.
I do not want to send my child to public school, yet i pay for it. I do not want to have him sing praises to the president when he is not God or a god. I do not want to have him raised in a place where he may be looked over for a job not because he isn't qualified but because of affirmative action and diversity. Today, the world I grew up in, is nothing like the world my son is growing up in... and I don't have enough money to launch a rocket and build a house on the moon.
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