When i wrote the last one i really didn't expect to be back so soon but i've just had some news and this seems like a good place to express my feelings about it.  I found out my grandad had a heart attack a few hours ago and has been rushed into hospital to have surgery.  It's hard to try and describe how i feel about it, he's always seemed so well, even with the age he is, i never really imagined him being any different, he is so full of life, always laughing and joking, one of the cheekiest and funniest people i've ever met in fact. I know he's ok for now but i worry about him going into surgery at his age...it must be risky...and then there's my grandmother, they have been married for 62 years! She would be completely lost without him, they come as a pair, one without the other would be so strange not only for them but for those who know them too.  I have been very lucky up to this point, no family i have been close to have died and although i don't want to be morbid, i know how important it is to stay positive but the thought has crossed my mind of what could happen, he may recover but then again he might not...i would no longer have the funny, warm, loving, cheeky, full of life man that is my grandad in my life anymore.