Turners Falls

 

Haunting/ghosting again today, as I do several days a week

 

I'm having website frustrations with soulcast. Here I am spending all this time updating every post I wrote last year, but when you go to my pages, the little blurb you see is still the old text, not the updated one. Why can't the page-blurbs be changed when I edit? It's irritating me. I'm doing all this work to update, and you can't even see that when you go to my pages.

 

I'm still in the rented room in Greenfield. I'm still a shell, nothing new there. When I don't have anything specific to do, or when I'm not with my one friend, I lie in my bed, which isn't even technically mine.

 

I come to Turners to be with my memories of my own life, my family. I dislike the people of Turners more than ever before, but my memories are here.

 

Matthew and I are not speaking now since June 11. And that's the only outcome there could be, since he refuses to give me information that he has and that I need. And he refuses to give me more than brief moments of his real self, and that has always been the case.