it was a strange day i was feeling very out of sorts. i am usually up and going and at the thrift shop . but being as i quit there i didnt feel like i had any direction today. my gf stopped by for a visit. always good to see her and she brought muffins. they where really good. i seem to have lost the art of making muffins. i used to make them by the dozens when the kids where in school.

 

i got another section of floor done in my room and started painting the walls again. got around the window done and hopfully the rest of the wall will be done by the end of the week. i think the work would move alot faster if i didnt have to wait for things to dry...

 

after my gf left i got ready to go out. i went to see my secret friend at the coffee shop where he likes to hang out. our friendship probly would not have developed as close as it is if he didnt hang out there. anyways we got to talk ,finally. i found out that he is very tempted to be with me and finds me very sexy. he is trying to avoid complications in his life. i can see his point completely. but when i am sitting accross from the table with him all i want to do is be alone with him. found out that he also day dreams about me as well. i asked if he would share one , but i think he is too shy to share. but thats ok. i learned alot more yesterday than i thought i ever would. he is not afraid to be alone with me , he just does not want the temptation of what might happen , i can see his point on that too.  i think i know what its like to love from afar......painful.....