yesterday, the sun rose as if nothing happened...
life continues... tragedies happen... we cannot control the forces of nature...
we deal with life...
yesterday we went back to the hardware store...
the water was gone as fast as it rose yesterday. all we see are mud and the stuff we sell all over the place...
my heart broke...
here i am building my dreams through this store and it was destroyed in a matter of moments...
i felt like my hands and feet were heavy when cleaning up the store. piece by piece i felt like my heart was breaking.
but i didnt show it. i never told anyone in real life what i feel. i never told anyone how heavy my heart is. i never told anyone in real i that i felt like everything changed for me.
me and my family were lucky that it didn't flooded in our home. me and my sister and her friend and our worker were lucky that we left the hardware store when the water reached waist level. (people said the water rose higher)
yes, were luckier than most people because i know a lot of people lost their home and now it is reported that it reached more than a hundred people died.
i am lucky...
or am i?
i don't feel lucky. seriously i feel like shit. my heart is so heavy after all of this...
my father is thinking of closing down the store because of what happened....
what about me?
what about my dreams??? i don't want to find another job again. i worked hard on this hardware store. i worked hard even if i hate it but i did it anyway because i want to achieved my happiness in life...
i'm sad, i'm angry i just feeel like shit with all of this...
and i know i don't have anyone to blame for it...
this is life...
and the truth is i'm just on the edge of it all...
right now i'm still building little by little on what happened. i'm trying to piece by piece put together my broken heart...
will life be different for now on?
yes...
will my dreams be the same after all of this?
yes...
will be a different person after all of this?
i don't know...
i just don't know...
the following are the pictures i took yesterday after the storm...
inside the hardware store
my chair totally destroyed...
inside the stockroom
the toilet...
my desk...
after the end of the day this is just how much we cleaned yesterday. we didnt finish because we got tired so we cleaned again today...
my desk again
half of our garbage yesterday...
our neighbors also had it bad. their furnitures got destroyed too...
if you could see the garbage got stuck on the fence...the water was higher than that...
it was hard for me taking this pictires, looking back it look like pictures from a movie...
but it's reality...
tomorrow, were gonno finish the cleaning and i will try to be positive and try to go on with life...
i don't know what my future now because of this...
all i know is i still have my dreams and i'll do everything i can to achieve it...