ok, i meant to write this blog weeks ago, but this is why i don't twitter ... the guy and i had lunch on Monday. Yes we are still friends, but the affair is over.. over for a  second time.  Since my last blog we decided the best thing for our futures were to stop. so we stopped but we continued to have contact - we still do now, but less. well you know how things go, contact leads to touching leads to kissing leads to one last day off in some 3.5 star hotel room.  things were a little different the last time because even then it had been a month since we were alone.  and we had several 'scares' of getting caught.. first my husband reads my emails - luckily i clean them out every time i log on and off, but this time i forgot to log off. the good thing was my husband skipped over an email from the guy and read an email from another male friend, which was completely platonic in nature.  then the guy shows me a letter from one of our most frequented hotels about a security breach... good thing he got the mail that day and not his wife, and last but not least my very own sister in law sees me walking down the street with the guy  - she ribs me about it, but there is nothing there cause we weren't holding hands or touching, things we have done many times as we walked - and i was only a block from work at lunch time.

 

So now we are trying to stay friends without slipping again. Personally i wish he would still channel any desire for me to his wife and tell me. why tell me - so i can really be over it - can't stay in love with someone who's in love with his wife, and 2. she deserves it cause she is his wife.

 

So i will maybe keep this posted, but i'm still trying to refocus on making me better cause i no longer have a escape from my otherwise crazy life.