Overwhelming
Depressing
Frustrating
Difficult
I agree with all of it. I just thought the answer to the question was obvious. "How do you do it?"
Let's not make me a saint or a martyr, kid. I honestly enjoy my work. There's no way in hell I could be at it this long if it was just an act of selfless charity.
My ego - my ego wants to make a difference. I want to know that when I leave the world, I made some kind of tiny ripple in the pond.
Also - I get as good as I give - not, not, not a thankless job. I'm not sure how anyone could trail me for two days and think that it's thankless? Really? That woman we just saw? She's going to keep her leg - not through any heroic measures - just good hygeine, patient education and the proper medications and dressings. Her tears made you think it was a thankless job? Were you paying attention?
The toothless grandpa that kissed me on the cheek? THAT seemed thankless?
Yep - you're right. It smells. It's dirty. And we see disgusting things ... but there's balance in it. I'm washable, and I wear a mask that has oil of wintergreen as needed.
You think it's not possible to love a stranger? Look at their eyes, always look into their eyes. If the lighting is right, you can see a reflection of yourself.
We're not that different, not at all.
It's by the grace of God, or by fate, destiny, whatever you want to call it, that we are healthy and they are not. Such a fine line.
Oh yes - it can be all of the things you told me. I can't lie about that. But if you can't see that it can also be
Beautiful
Deeply Rewarding
Blessed
and above all, Joyful
Do yourself a favor and walk away. The pay sucks. The hours suck. But the side benefits make it all worth while.
I honestly love what I do. I am often surprised when others don't see it, but I would never force anyone into it.



