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Overwhelming
 
Depressing
 
Frustrating
 
Difficult
 
I agree with all of it.  I just thought the answer to the question was obvious.  "How do you do it?"
 
Let's not make me a saint or a martyr, kid.  I honestly enjoy my work.  There's no way in hell I could be at it this long if it was just an act of selfless charity.
 
My ego - my ego wants to make a difference.  I want to know that when I leave the world, I made some kind of tiny ripple in the pond. 
 
Also - I get as good as I give - not, not, not a thankless job.  I'm not sure how anyone could trail me for two days and think that it's thankless?  Really?  That woman we just saw?  She's going to keep her leg - not through any heroic measures - just good hygeine, patient education and the proper medications and dressings.  Her tears made you think it was a thankless job?  Were you paying attention?
 
The toothless grandpa that kissed me on the cheek?  THAT seemed thankless?
 
Yep - you're right.  It smells.  It's dirty.  And we see disgusting things ... but there's balance in it.  I'm washable, and I wear a mask that has oil of wintergreen as needed. 
 
You think it's not possible to love a stranger?  Look at their eyes, always look into their eyes.  If the lighting is right, you can see a reflection of yourself. 
 
We're not that different, not at all.
 
It's by the grace of God, or by fate, destiny, whatever you want to call it, that we are healthy and they are not.  Such a fine line.
 
Oh yes - it can be all of the things you told me.  I can't lie about that.  But if you can't see that it can also be
 
Beautiful
 
Deeply Rewarding
 
Blessed
 
and above all, Joyful
 
Do yourself a favor and walk away.  The pay sucks.  The hours suck.  But the side benefits make it all worth while.
 
I honestly love what I do.  I am often surprised when others don't see it, but I would never force anyone into it. 


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  • Me-Myself&I said on Sep 16, 2009....
    repeating. . . . you are an amazing soul!
  • wishyouwerehere said on Sep 16, 2009....
    We're all amazing souls, MMI - sometimes, you just have to look deeper than others.  And sometimes, people throw it away, but the potential for beauty is always there.  It's our birthright.
     
    Namaste - I bow to the light in YOUR amazing soul, MMI.
     
    And ... thank you for the compliment!
     
    Hugs - Wishy
  • Hegemone said on Sep 16, 2009....
    It takes a special kind, like yourself,  to be able to look past all that other stuff and see the beauty in it, and not everybody is just that special.  I agree with you, if you can't see the beauty, stop now and find a different calling because clearly the one you think you're in isn't it.
  • wishyouwerehere said on Sep 16, 2009....
    Silly fool that I am, Hege - I am actually quite crushed from it.  This kid started out so enthusiastic and is already prepared to throw in the towel after 2 days.  And they weren't even that horrendous, trust me.  Two easy days.
     
    My sister just reminded me that I wasn't so thrilled when I first started either. Excellent point.  My actual "work" is really quite putrid, no lies - but the people are amazing.  Maybe it will just be an adjustment.  I hope he gives it a chance.
     
  • cuppajava said on Sep 16, 2009....
    .....do you really want me to get started with you my dear?
    You are doing this cos you got nothing to prove to ANYBODY besides yourself - this is a small mountain (no pun intended) that you have been wanting to climb for a long time.
    Its given you your independence and your freedom to be without having to answer to anyone else except yourself - so please just do us both a favour.....and just.....be

    You will be just fine.You know that the career path you are in is rewarding - thats why you are taking it one step further like you are.

    Dont forget that

    Brazos y besitos
    x
  • fragglesrock said on Sep 16, 2009....

    Wishy, I could read you all day long.  Btw....wintergreen oil on the mask, that explains things :)

  • phoeby said on Sep 17, 2009....
    'ello.

    Wasn't quite understanding what it is you do? are you a nurse or doctor or work in a hospital or an emergency room?

    I also don't see it as a thankless job. As you alluded to, just because the thanks doesn't always come from the patients, doesn't mean you aren't appreciated. I'm sure their families are very appreciative, the people you work with, the general public also can have faith that the services (should they ever need them) are all a-ok etc etc....
     
    not sure I agree with you about the grace of god defining why you and I are healthy and 'patients' aren't. Oftentimes, patients and clients of social services have to contend with unbelievable oppressive factors and forces that you and I could never fully understand or appreciate, that contribute to them being either unhealthy, in accidents, victims of abuse or otherwise.  

    If you look at it this way, no wonder sometimes they don't thank people. they are probably just fed up.

    love phoeby
  • wishyouwerehere said on Sep 17, 2009....
    TY Cj & Fraggies
     
    Hi Phoeby - Thanks for popping by.  Sometimes, the only gratitude in situations is mine, and that's quite all right.  I didn't mean to imply that there was any judgment in why some of us are healthy and some aren't - socioeconomic status is definitely a factor, but I didn't choose where I was born, and so many of the advantages I've been given were also not choices or things that I may have earned.  I am fortunate to be healthy and have the means to properly care for myself.  Others are not as fortunate, not necessarily through any lack of effort on their part. 
  • Mr.Strange said on Sep 17, 2009....
    Hello again wish.

    I would like you to try something for me.

    ask yourself how do you feel, think about it just to know where you are.

    Chant, sing, what ever just simply repeat this quote and make it fun, something you are enjoying.

    "Without evidence, my thoughts are meaningless assumptions"

    Do so for a few minutes.

    then again

    ask yourself how do you feel...make comparative notes.

    Have A Great Day
  • wishyouwerehere said on Sep 17, 2009....
    I am not my thoughts, Mr. Strange.  We are more than bodies or minds.  This is why I meditate daily - to remind myself that there is a deeper reality behind the chatter in my head.
  • Mr.Strange said on Sep 17, 2009....
    Wish, you are such a gift to my life.

    The Body, Follows the mind.

    Have An Amazing Day,

    Please check out my most recent blog. 
    I would love to play this game with you, if you are ready.
  • queenparanoia said on Sep 18, 2009....
    this just made me smile wishy... :-)

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