some events in my life are too fast...
too fast for me that i don't know if i could catch up...
anyway this post is a release for me because i need something to release...
these past few days a lot has been happening to me.
but i don't want to talk about that.
i want to talk about my cousin...
tuesday... she was having a normal massage when the guy told her that he felt something in her stomach.
she went to have an ultrasound on the same day.
they found out that there was 18x12 centimeter cyst in her right ovary...
and they immediately scheduled her for an operation...
yesterday, thursday, the operation was a success.
my cousin is now okay and the cyst was benign...
so what does it has to do with me?
ive been here in the hospital since wednesday and spent two nights here.
i havent have a decent bath and i need sleep... badly...
so why was i was the one who became her caretaker?
because her fucking mother would rather attend a fucking golf tournament and have a fucking vacation in boracay. (boracay is a popular tourist destination).
i'm not complaining about this...
the other reason is that people here think that i'm a good caretaker since i was the one who took care of my grandparents during my high school and college days...
my cousin today told me i could be a good nurse while giving her a sponge bath...
i told her i can't be a nurse because i'm scared of blood...
so why am i blogging today?
because taking care of people... sick people is emotionally draining...
i don't want to complain... seriously i dont want to...
even if my cousin is a little demanding... but i'm happy that she has this positive attitude...
she keeps saying! finallyshe can wear a bikini since her tummy is flat!
yes i'm happy that i could help in my own way...
but this is emotional draining for me...
first of all...i worry about the patient a lot...
and i don't have enough sleep becuase one move she make i immidiately wake up...
and i'm stress eating a lot too...
people here think that just because i'm used to this they don't think it's not emotionally tiring...
so yeah i dont want to be a nurse because i dont know if i could make it...
and eventhough i got used to take care of my grandparents in the hospital it still draining for me... emotionally and physically...
so going to take care of the person that take cares?
..................
well right now i dont wanna think of me... i need to think of the patient... my cousin...
right now she's okay and she's chatty with the nurse.. and i'm really happy because she's recoveing very fast...
i wanna thank my friends who sent their thoughts and prayers... especially the one in fb... please dont say anything to fb in what i just wrote here...
well that's what i wanna say... i'll be blogging soon after my life is normal...
i miss you guys...
keep on blogging!!!



