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some events in my life are too fast...

too fast for me that i don't know if i could catch up...

anyway this post is a release for me because i need something to release...

these past few days a lot has been happening to me.

but i don't want to talk about that.

i want to talk about my cousin...

tuesday... she was having a normal massage when the guy told her that he felt something in her stomach.

she went to have an ultrasound on the same day.

they found out that there was 18x12 centimeter cyst in her right ovary...

and they immediately scheduled her for an operation...

yesterday, thursday, the operation was a success.

my cousin is now okay and the cyst was benign...

so what does it has to do with me?

ive been here in the hospital since wednesday and spent two nights here.

i havent have a decent bath and i need sleep... badly...

so why was i was the one who became her caretaker?

because her fucking mother would rather attend a fucking golf tournament and have a fucking vacation in boracay. (boracay is a popular tourist destination).

i'm not complaining about this...

the other reason is that people here think that i'm a good caretaker since i was the one who took care of my grandparents during my high school and college days...

my cousin today told me i could be a good nurse while giving her a sponge bath...

i told her i can't be a nurse because i'm scared of blood...

so why am i blogging today?

because taking care of people... sick people is emotionally draining...

i don't want to complain... seriously i dont want to...

even if my cousin is a little demanding... but i'm happy that she has this positive attitude...

she keeps saying! finallyshe can wear a bikini since her tummy is flat!

yes i'm happy that i could help in my own way...

but this is emotional draining for me...

first of all...i worry about the patient a lot...

and i don't have enough sleep becuase one move she make i immidiately wake up...

and i'm stress eating a lot too...

people here think that just because i'm used to this they don't think it's not emotionally tiring...

so yeah i dont want to be a nurse because i dont know if i could make it...

and eventhough i got used to take care of my grandparents in the hospital it still draining for me... emotionally and physically...

so going to take care of the person that take cares?

..................




well right now i dont wanna think of me... i need to think of the patient... my cousin...

right now she's okay and she's chatty with the nurse.. and i'm really happy because she's recoveing very fast...

i wanna thank my friends who sent  their thoughts and prayers... especially the one in fb... please dont say anything to fb in what i just wrote here...

well that's what i wanna say... i'll be blogging soon after my life is normal...

i miss you guys...





keep on blogging!!!


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  • gingersoul said on Aug 27, 2009....
    Queenie....its a great compliment being praised for being able to take care of people who are suffering and need support and comfort, as i already told you......

    Not everybody is able to face other people pain. I know of people who runs away from it.

    You did good. Be proud of yourself.
     
    Your caring nature shines through...{hugs} 
  • Hegemone said on Aug 27, 2009....
    Well I'm certainly glad to hear your cousin is OK and doing even better.  Sounds like you certainly have a talent in this sort of thing, maybe is there some sort of position besides a nurse that would allow you to utilize these skills without dealing with blood?  If that's what you would want to do anyway, I know it's a lot different to take care of loved ones as opposed to people you don't know.  Hopefully soon enough your cousin will be well and you can take some time to recharge yourself, and of course we'll be here for you and I'll keep you guys in my thoughts.  ((((((HUGS)))))))
  • queenparanoia said on Aug 27, 2009....
    ginger: will email you later... still tired and busy here...

    hegemone: i dont want to be a nurse i wanna be a chef. ive been taking care of people all my life. it's tiring... anyway thanks for the prayers and positive thoughts cousin is recovering very fast... :-)
  • uniquely-ironic said on Aug 28, 2009....
    I'm glad your cousin is okay, but maybe you need to start taking care of yourself a little bit now.  Demand, not ask, that someone come and give you a break from caring for her.  It is emotionally draining to care for sick people.  Be your own best friend here Queenie, if nothing else, find a chunk of time that your cousin will be okay on her own and sleep! (or maybe a short walk outdoors)
  • katelovesorange44 said on Aug 28, 2009....
    i know how u feel queen. i was the one who stepped in and looked after my mother in the hospital for 3 months while she was dying. and i live 6 hour drive away btw and had to stay at my inlaws cause my siblings have no room for me. anyhow back to mom. i was emotionally and physically exhausted by the end. i was numb for the funeral.  and now that i need taking care of where is husband....playing golf..gone fishing or generally gone. its a good question .......who will take care of the caretaker...........so far no one...............
  • daddy's_girl said on Aug 28, 2009....
    HI my dear Queen!!! I missed you! go to see you blogging again! I hope your cousin gets better. I know you are doing a go job there. Don't worry to much ear. I'll have you in my prayers. Take care always
  • wombat said on Aug 28, 2009....

    Just saying hi and that you did good by standing by and being the caregiver.  You've been through alot of changes and stresses yourself, so I hope you will take care of yourself for awhile.

    I couldn't be a nurse, either.  Some people are just cut out for that and some aren't,  and I had two sisters who are/were nurses.

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