I've decided that if my body doesn't kill me, my mind will.
Sounds drastic but in reality it's just an obvious statement. Especially when you know me as a person. I "tend" to overthink .......... everything. (I'm just being polite to myself there, in fact I always overthink things) I wish I could stop it, but I'm not that disciplined. At least not yet. I am working on it, but I'm up against a pretty intimidating mind and will. It causes me to lose sleep, be anxious, be sad, do stupid things just because I am unwilling to look back and wonder "what if", etc.
What my mind does not allow me to do (without a lot of arguing) is just experience life, accepting things because they exist or happen. It's nearly impossible for me to "just let go" of things. I even hate to hear those words as they point out to me just how tenaciously I hang onto things I don't even want. I mean, I think that's like a mental sigh that I'm just not able to have. The only time I've come close to that was sitting on the beach watching the waves.
So, if my body doesn't give out, I'm pretty sure my mind will find a way to drive me over the edge. Yes, I'm trying meditation and all sorts of relaxation techniques, but my mind has got a powerful headstart in the race to quiet my mind. :)
