I have never wanted so much in my life than this very dream. I am embracing it with all my heart, not letting it go. I am only afraid that I may not be the person who deserves this gift. God knows how grateful I am. But sometimes, out of great happiness, escapes an air of fear. One hit of uncertain reality tells me everything changes. To be wronged of my expectations, in the end, could ruin the only hope I have left. I have become so tired accepting that this could be another lesson to learn. Then again, I need to be more patient. I need to move on believing that there is always something, that is meant for me. I need to regain strength, standing up on a broken ground. I keep bending from the pain and chaos around me. I am sorry. For I am just a weak child to understand still what is going on. I am struggling hard to realize true faith in all this.

And I close my eyes..A second of fear may overwhelm me. But I won't let it build up and take the rest of me.