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Here I sit, yet again, virtually being paid to do nothing, or to play around here on the computer.  In essence, I AM doing something, I'm running diagnostics, repairs, etc. on the computer currently.  It just doesn't require a lot of effort on my part beyond a button click here or there.

I swear, my brain is wreaking absolute and total havoc on me.   I do have one idea I thought of last night that I think I seriously want to try because I'm nearly to the end of my rope.  I think I want to give meditation (NOT medication) or something similar to it a try.  I'm not worried about exercise or anything, I just want something for my mind ... a way to clear the air, to refresh myself regularly, sort of a deal.  I can't go on a vacation, and I can't afford to spend a lot of money on it, so I'm just looking for the basics.  Does anybody have any good suggestions for a book on meditation or maybe a reliable website?

I've got to be able to clear my mind from time to time.  Literally, yesterday, my mind was racing from one thing to the other and it was just becoming overwhelming.  I could nearly smell the smoke when I felt like I was going to overload.  There's got to be a release or a shutdown somewhere for me.  I pin pointed the fact that I really just need to get away for a week or so, be alone (well, my husband can go) and not be effected by my normal daily tasks, interruptions and distractions. 

I need to leave responsibility behind for a while and just get lost in my own thoughts as I please.  I need some regular privacy, not just when I happen to be lucky enough to catch it and have the time to take advantage of it.  I can't afford to just take off on vacation, I'm not going to waste gas we can't afford driving somewhere every day for an hour or so, and realistically I'll peter out and quit taking walks and such after a short while if I try to do that.  I thought meditating would be a great toss up in there.  Some days perhaps I can walk, others just stay at home and meditate at a designated time.

I want to block myself off sometimes and be totally unavailable.  After reading Grape's post today, it sounded especially appealing not to have a cell phone, or at least to switch phone plans and get a new number.  I wouldn't have to give my number out to anybody I did not wish to.  It would literally be starting fresh and that makes my mind jump with excitement a little bit.  I find myself pulling inward more and more lately, and whereas I first thought it was bad, now I'm beginning to see it as a preparedness to recycle/dispose of all of the negative things in my life.

Before this gets hideously long, I'm going to get the next post going ...


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  • mixednuts said on Aug 25, 2009....
    Take a deep breath. Turn off the TV. Go to" ebaumsworld.com" , or "COAST TO COAST AM" with George Noory.
  • Hegemone said on Aug 25, 2009....
    Mixed - I'll check those out when I'm at home, thank you.
  • simplyconfused said on Aug 25, 2009....
    No help with the meditating, however I think it could be a good idea.  Search away and find information! ^_^  The only help I could really give is google, however you could stumble upon websites that know shit all about meditating.  Anyway, happy searching/meditating if you start that up. ^_^
  • uniquely-ironic said on Aug 25, 2009....
    there are a lot of sights that have good advice.
     
    I think the important part is to be physically comfortable (no weird body positions) and to close your eyes to help close out visual stimulation.  Pick a phrase or a place in your mind.  Allow the thoughts to flow, focus on your breathing.
  • Hegemone said on Aug 25, 2009....
    Simply - Yes I do think it might be something good to turn to, I need something, that's for sure.

    Uni - Right, that's something along the lines of what I want.  Something simple that I can almost do anytime, anywhere.  Ideally I'd like to make time for it every single day, but if I'm having a really tough time, I don't want to have to wait until I'm somewhere or until a certain time to do it.

  • gingersoul said on Aug 25, 2009....
    Just go outside and walk.
     
    Breath deeply while you walk and focus only in admiring the nature around you.
     
    This is the best meditation you can ever achieve.
     
    No need of fancy books, or mantra or yoga positions....;-).
  • Hegemone said on Aug 25, 2009....
    Ginge - I'll be doing that too, but I also want an alternative for the days that it's cruddy weather out, or I'm being too lazy to walk, so that I still do SOMETHING productive for myself.
  • hotaka said on Aug 25, 2009....
    I once read that a walk in the country or in some green space is especially calming to the mind and soul. But I think meditation even at home can work wonders. I know next to nothing about meditation but I have heard you need to close your eyes (80% of our sensed information comes through our eyes so shut them and you shut out 80% distraction) and be in a quiet place. Put on some calming music and let your mind wander wherever the music takes you. When you're ready you can think about each of your problem areas one by one, size them up, consider what can be solved and what must be endured. Then later you can think about how to solve what can be solved and imagine a plan. But whenever any particular thought causes you stress then drop it and let yourself get lost again. Well, that's kind of how I do it. That and some cursing and hissing. You shouldn't bang anything though because sometimes it bounces back up into your face and you get hurt.
  • gingersoul said on Aug 25, 2009....

    Ok, when you can't walk.....watch this video..
    var fo = writeMoviePlayer("watch-player-div", false, null, null, "100%", "100%");

    It has been created based on Dr. Jeffrey Thompson's groundbreaking work with sound patterns has been used by psychologists, bodyworkers, and hypnotherapists since 1981 to affect Consciousness.

    I use it once in a while when i want to clear my mind....pick one point on the screen and stare at it...if you focus your look all that shapes and patterns will slowly change ....and you will feel calm with no other thoughts in your mind that the music and the colors...

    Hope it will help you...;-)

    If not to sleep....lol...
  • gingersoul said on Aug 25, 2009....

    And this one is good too...
  • MsStar39 said on Aug 26, 2009....
    Hege you really need some quiet time alone. until you get another phone number,
    just turn it off and turn it back  on when you feel like it, if it's important enough they will leave a message, this is what I do.
    I also turn my home phone off before I go to bed and turn it back on when I am ready to face the day.
     
  • curmudgeon said on Aug 26, 2009....
    No real need for books or whatever.

    Just sit in a comfortable place, spine erect, shoulders aligned with hips, head directly over spine. Proper skeletal alignment reduces muscular tension. Relax the abdomen, breathe slowly. Relax shoulders and feel your body gradually loosening up.

    There are different approaches to quieting the mind - focusing on the breath, chanting some one syllable word, like "Om," staring at some object and the like. For me, closing my eyes and opening my ears seems to do the trick. Just be completely present - in the moment - no past, no future, just here now. There is nothing mystical or spiritual or enlightening or any of that other stuff - just be present and relax.

    The best advice one can give is that it does no good to set goals in meditation. We have too many goals already. Just breathe until you are ready to do something else. It could be five minutes or fifteen or thirty. It will vary from session to session. All this is ok.

    Enjoy!
  • CreativeWoman said on Aug 26, 2009....
    Kelly Howell has several guided meditations that you listen to with headphones.  I especially like The Secret Meditation II.   It helps you to center on what you really want and how to manifest abundance in your life.  I got mine in a Borders bookstore, but I've also seen them at Amazon.com.

    This one in particular takes very little effort on your part.  You just relax and your mind will do the rest.

    CW
  • Hegemone said on Aug 26, 2009....
    Hot - That sounds like a good practice to follow, thank you.  I think that's a big part of it, I knew OF meditation, but not ABOUT it.  So I'm figuring out how to go about it really.  Also, the only reason I'm looking for alternatives to just walking is because for me, living out in the country, it's easy to lose sight of the actual appreciation for it, further, whether I want it to be or not, it can be very distracting considering most of the areas I can just go out the door and walk to are either my family in law's property (risk of being snagged and talked to) or on a dangerous road since people drive like idiots here.   Speaking of banging or throwing things, lol, that reminds me of a story.  One of my dad's friends had a cell phone that was ticking him off so he threw it at the wall.  Darned if that thing didn't bounce back and hit him in the face!  He got even angrier, threw it again, and it came back and hit him in the arm!  So he stomped it to death instead of giving it another opportunity to hit him.  I still laugh when I think of it.

    Ginge - Oh thank you for those!  They look like they'll be very helpful to me and with all these different techniques and ideas I'm getting I'll be able to just stop and calm myself anywhere, which is largely helpful.

    MsStar - Yes, I'm learning to turn my phone off more.  It's a slow habit to break, because initially I used to do it all the time, but when my mom started having her problems, with her mental break and all of that stuff, I wanted her to know I was available for her 100% of the time.  So I started leaving my phone on so she could call and always be able to reach me.  She's in a better state of mind now, so as I mentioned, it's taking me some time to realize that it's OK if I'm unreachable for a little while.

    Cur - Thank you.  I don't think it's reasonable to set goals either, but I do want to learn different techniques on how to do it.  As I mentioned to Hot, I knew OF meditation, just not much about it and it's something I really want to be able to do and not be going about it the wrong way.  I think I'm nearly equipped with enough ideas, videos, etc. that I'm ready to go about it.


    CW - That sounds like something worth trying for sure.  Something auditory would be excellent so that I can close my eyes and have help blocking out all of the exterior sounds in my environment.  I know it'll take practice for me not to jump or perk my ears when I hear my dad yell or other odd noises.  Think I'll check into that.
  • gingersoul said on Aug 26, 2009....
    CW .....if you notice......the video i posted is from Secret Meditation.......:-)
     
    Heggie....no need to buy anything ....you can find lots of stuff on YouTube...free...
  • Hegemone said on Aug 26, 2009....
    Ginge - Yup, that is a good opportunity.  I'm going to have to look for stuff I can download and save though, purely because I'm on dialup and to load those videos regularly, well, it would take me something to the effect of an hour a piece sometimes and there are times I can't stay online that long.  I'll figure it out though, who knows, I might dance around with one here, one there, trying different things until I find what works ... or who knows, maybe they'll all work in tandem.
  • hotaka said on Aug 26, 2009....
    Hegehog, yes, I guess being surrounded by in laws and idiots would spoil a walk in the country. Good laugh about the phone. I think I have a similar story about something but not a phone. I know I have been hit a number of times by things I meant to destroy. Maybe it's God's way of saying, "Stop being such a child and show some respect for things."

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