as usual my life never seems to calm down. my oldest is not talking to me again . seems i am a terrible parent again. i think its more like he feels guilty for beating the shit out of his little brother a month ago. as he should feel guilty. the kid had 2 black eyes and alot of bruising too. so now the oldest is taking out of me. guess this my lesson to learn in this life. to deal with my kid somehow.  one day at a time is all i can do ....

 

in the mean time i am making progress on my room/studio. am about halfway now with the big push coming this weekend when i move the desk into place and then move my computer to its new location. the new jack has been put in and the new desk has been painted. with a gallon of brown paint and the cost of the used desk and chair still cheaper than buying new.  cant wait for the time to come to move the rest. spouse still thinks i will never finish this . but i will.........even if its just to get a new bed. i gave my old waterbed to the youngest. i am gonna order a new softsided waterbed.  anyhow i want to prove him wrong more than anything.  once i get my things moved to the other side of the room i think the rest will go pretty fast. i think the closet will take the longest. would love to rip that out and start over. but that wont happen. will make due.

 

am still at the thrift shop. every day i say it will be my last but i go in for just one more day.  some days i wonder why i keep going back , other than the love of books i cant see why either. the new manager sure has no use for me or the major for that matter.  seems i am always putting the books on the shelf wrong.  i think i mainly go just to get out of the house. good as reason as any i guess.

 

i bought some more cement edging to make another garden i think i will be digging myself ,even though the kid said he would do it. i have 3 plants i have to get in the ground soon.

 

today would have been my parents 49th wedding aniversary.