Never in my wildest dreams did I ever think I would be ok about this situation. It was something I struggled against with all of my strength. It was something I feared and considered failure. It seemed that giving into this would define me and limit me.
And now it's here. There's no more running from it and looking for an escape hatch. In fact I am at peace with the situation. Would I choose it? No. Of course not. But moving to acceptance is progress.
What am I rambling on about? Well, after decades of struggle, I reached the point with my diabetes when I had no other option than insulin. So, each night before I go to sleep I grab my needles, my swabs, and my Lantus pen and give myself a dose of insulin. It is a type of insulin that only requires one shot a day and it is used in combination with my oral drugs. I have had such high readings, especially in the morning, that I knew I had to find a diabetic specialist and make some changes. The new Dr. is a lovely young woman who treated me with kindness and with none of the patronizing attitude I have been dealing with from my family dr. She was also a straight shooter and I appreciate that in people.
So. Here I am an insulin user hoping for significant improvement in my sugar levels AND my energy levels. Both are important. I know all the issues with insulin and I worry about those a little, along with thoughts of travel difficulties, but I know I've done everything I can do and I know I have fought the good fight for over 30 years. Therefore I am peaceful and hopeful and am looking forward to many healthier years ahead of me.
I still have lots of things to do. Lots.
