This past weeks have been very hectic, busy for all of us. My mom and brother leaves in about 3 weeks and it's becoming evident for us that life will be very different once they leave. My mom leaves with me our family business and it will take up more of my time, time I used to spend for myself will now be spent dealing with the said business. Plus our house has been so cluttered that I don't even know where I put some of my own stuff, since my mom's and my brother's stuff are all packed here, plus my kids and my husbands stuff, so our house looks more like a warehouse rather than an actual house. Some times its frustrating, since I cannot fix anything without my mom interfering. So I decided that I will just start fixing my house the way I want to when they leave. And we are counting down till they leave....

Well, during a quiet time amidst all these clutter I find myself in. It got me thinking... what do I really want to do in my life? When I was younger I wanted to be doctor, I started the process but never got to finish since I realized that I didn't want to study for that long. Then I met my husband and all I can think of was that I wanted to be wife to him. When I had my children, I know that I will be fulfilled if I could be a good parent. As I get older, I am slowly learning and finding my own special niche in this world. I am learning to fight for myself, learning to ask for what I want, instead of just accepting what was offered, but i'm still learning and still looking for my perfect niche, where I would be complete, content and totally happy.

I never thought I'd question my role in this world. But with all the different aspects of my humanity. Wife, mother, sister, entrepreneur, leader, follower, artist, and what have you's. Where should I concentrate, what should I prioritize? Could I be all of them and not compromise my own self worth? Could I be an artist whle being a good mom? Can I concentrate on business and still pursue my artistic side? Can I prioritize community fellowship and still be good wife? Where should I place myself? What can I do to be able to do all that I want to without compromising one of my priorities..

Thinking about it makes my head ache... I really pray that everything fall into place, way before I'm too old to enjoy the benefits