So Nate and I have been texting and messaging each other on myspace and worked things out to where we can be friends which is fine with me. Last night we were texting while I was work talking about things when he told me he wished I was there with him. I was tempted to tell him it was his decision that I'm not, but I didn't. Then he told me that he wanted me to go back with him in January when he leaves here. I am so proud of myself at what I told him.
I told him 1 I have a kick ass job here that I cannot give up. I have car payment now that I need a good job like this to pay off. Then I told him how could I follow him without knowing he would break my heart again. I reminded how much I cried over him and he hurt me pretty bad. He has yet to respond. I mean I love him dearly and would want nothing more than to be with him again, but I don't want to get hurt again. If we do ever get back togehter he would have a lot of proving to do.
I am proud that I was able to tell him that without crumbling and giving in to him. I know he thinks letting me go was a mistake and that he misses me, but I dont want to get hurt by him again...not to mention I have a great guy who I am talking to now that I don't want to risk losing because Nate is missing me...
rmuxagirl posted on Aug 12, 2009
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secretlife said on Aug 12, 2009....
good for you.now here's a little bit of advise ---- sometimes when you break off with a guy who was shitty to you, the best thing is not to try the "friend" route-you don't even own him friendship, and it sounds like he's sending you mixed signals that you just do NOT need.......bottom line- who cares about Nate now? -
wishyouwerehere said on Aug 12, 2009....
SL makes an excellent point - what has Nate done to deserve a second chance? Sounds to me that you are indeed better off without him - you have way too much to offer to waste it on someone who didn't appreciate you in the first place. -
queenparanoia said on Aug 12, 2009....
good for you rmuxagirl!!! you know you have a good life now and i think that's another reason why nate wants you back.. i mean if he really loved you he should have not let you go on the first place... -
Hegemone said on Aug 12, 2009....
Go you! That's awesome that you stood up for yourself, you are so valuable and worth it, and don't you forget that. I agree with Secret and Wishy. Be careful because you could be on a slippery slope, it might not feel that way, but time will heal you ... but it won't protect you from somebody who will most likely hurt you again, it'll just blur that fact. Best of luck. -
rmuxagirl said on Aug 13, 2009....
I think he did appreciate me, actually said it a few times, but didn't know how to deal with actually having someone who loved him. All he's known is people wanting something in return. We talked and like I said he explained himself and admitted it was not the best thing for him to do and apologized for it. Here I am making excuses for him...OY. I haven't talk to him since then which has been a couple of days.
I am focusing on what is between me and my friend TJ who I go to church with. I will post about him later when I get the chance, some stuff to say about that one LOL.
But thanks for your support guys. I know I need to be careful with him and with what he says to me. Like I told him how can i trust him again and how can i give up my job that I love without that certainty.
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