This first round of therapy is already kicking my ass. This is the first time I have been out of bed all day. I can't eat, I can't sleep and I can't even remember who I am at some moments. My head is throbbing, my limbs feel heavy...like lead. I didn't even have the strength to lift my head this morning. Jesse tried to get me to eat and drink something, but I just can't stomach it. I have a yellowish tint to my skin and eyes and my skin feels like a snake. My face and eyes are swollen and my teeth even hurt. I was supposed to have a hypnotherapy session today, but I couldn't even make it out of bed. What the hell? I don't know if it's the progestin or the radiation...maybe both, but I don't know why it has to hurt so bad.
I got up to use the restroom, and my legs gave out. I knocked my head, twisted my knee and bruised the hell out of my arm. I had my treatment early, early this morning. 5AM to be exact. They took blood, gave me the progestin and started the radiation. I don't remember feeling quite this bad last time. I mean, it sucked, but it's the most horiffic thing I have ever been through. I just can't wait for it all to be over. I keep thinking positive so hopefully things will work out.
