Guess it was too good to be true. That one amazing reconcilaation lead to two weeks of peaceful bliss even though we were apart we were together and he was mine again.  Nothing else mattered. Then out of the blue , I get a text.  It says that he cheated .. twice when times were rough. LIke thats any kind of excuse ? We were engaged it was a life longt commitment and he couldnt make it through a few years of long distance. Then theres im sorry I want you and only you it was a mistake .. well mistakes dont happen twice. He put me at risk cause i trusted him and now i know hes my world and im tryin to work it out but i get so mad and so upset i cant even look at him sometimes.
So the question is.. can a relationship be successful after this ? Will i ever be able to move on and forgive him when he is going to be 5000 km away from me again in a few short weeks? IS he lying how do i tell ? and how do i not get myself crushed again? this is all too complicated . right now he is asleep and im watchin him and i know that this is the man i am supposed to marry so why doesnt he realize that ? why would he do this to me. Not to mention let me pay alot of money to visit with him right after the two incidents and thats only IF he is tellin the truth now ? so how do i know ? what do i do ? ... im soooooooooooo mad and hurt and betrayed i want to hit him. :( :/ ugh ..