It was weird, so weird, so so weird. i walked in an these girls are like oh, unicorn, you and kayliegh are freinds? wtf..i dont know what to think,
no i do kno what to think, i just am tired off thinking bad
so now i see how people are and im not putting up pretty flowers around them for me to like them...i dont want to simpply just drop them, ignore them, but i i dont i will go off, i will prod untill i get some version of perpictival truth ffrom her which always causes resentment on both parts.
From a reaction like that, what do you think has been going on, mixed with the info that she has told a freind a version of truth about me that wasnt at the shower. at the shower was girls , some i never talk to, some i have chilled with. I can only handle so much deceit.
i can only handle so many lies
so much hormones
so much gossip
so much negativity.
just deceit, deceit, thats also what the spider meant, in my dreams, that i am in a web of deceit. I wont be any longer.
The question left is how do i just be appropriate without getting suckked into that web again, and still hold my ground which is fertile and safe.
Want a picture of what the shower looked like?
bunch of babys and women.
Ive realized im not lesbian, bisexual, nor straight. I just aint people anything or something....
I read that love is fearless, cleared up alot for me.
I need to be fearless.
