Last year around this time, I was eagerly awaiting a visit from a very special person that I had never met before, though I could have told you that I had known her for years. Perhaps even in my past life. I was about two weeks away from turning a wishful thinking into reality. A lifetime of longing about to be fulfilled.
I still remember the anticipation, the excitement. The nervousness. What would I say? How would I say it? What would I wear? All these little things had to be thought of, worked out.
The moment came and went like a delicious dream and my life had been forever changed since that encounter.
Two years ago around this time, I walked out of the hospital with a clean bill of health after being in there for twelve days. Well... The bill of health wasn't exactly clean, as the condition I have is a chronic one, but it was finally down to a manageable condition. I weighed 136 pounds when I walked out of the hospital. I hadn't weighed 136 pounds since I was twelve years old.
I've gained 40 pounds in the last two years. I'm back up to my fighting weight, but I think I can stand to drop a few pounds now. I'm beginning to have a little belly.
I'm not losing this weight by dieting, though. My diet right now is erratic enough as it is. I've been going back to my doctor for the last month or so because my condition had deteriorated somewhat. For the last three days, I've been on a liquid diet. It's easier on my digestive system, but I'm only consuming about 1000-1200 calories a day. I'm not going to lose weight by lessening my caloric intake. I have to drop this excess weight by exercising. I've been walking around the neighborhood at night and even did a few situps and pushups earlier today. I must say that the release of endorphines was something that I hadn't felt in a long time. And you know what? It felt great. :)
Getting my health back has become a serious focus for me lately. I don't like talking about my body because I feel compulsive about it almost. Obssessive compulsive, even. I watch everything I eat and how it effects me, and I've become hypersensitive to what I put in my system.
Oh and while I was in the hospital, I was picked up on a book deal. My book was published last year and I learned through my earnings statement that I received last week that my book has sold almost 50'000 copies. 49;783 to be exact, at the end of April. I haven't been paid any royalties on the book yet, becaus the publisher has to make back the advance that they paid me before I start seeing any royalties, but I am now closer than ever before. Hopefully by next year, I'll see some pennies trickle in.
Three years ago, I was lured by the idea of making money by blogging and joined SoulCast.
I actually found an ad on Hotjobs and applied for it. I'll bet I'm the only one that "applied" to become a blogger on SC from hotjobs. They accepted my application, too. Wasn't that nice of them?
But I didnt make any money on SC. I did set up an adsense account, and the account was up to 16 dollars at one point, but my adsense account was closed due to non-action. So I never got paid to blog.
It's okay though. The blogging experience was far more rewarding than anything that you could put monetary value to. After all, I did meet the love of my life here. The love and friendship I cultivated over the written word was far more valuable than any amount of money. I wouldn't trade the experience I've gained here for all the gold in Fort Knox. Not in a million years.
I don't get a chance to blog as much as I once did, and there are many reasons for that. One of which is that I no longer have an internet connection at my house, and the other being that I just don't have the time and the energy like I once did anymore. My preoccupation with my health issues have something to do with that as well. Perhaps these things will be resolved and perhaps I'll come back to commenting and posting with more regularity, but as of right now, I don't really see that happening any time soon.
I will however, keep plugging away and post and comment when I can.
It seems like the end of July has been an important point in my life for the last few years. It always brought on great changes in my life.
I wonder what this coming year holds for me?
Well...
Here's to little victories.
Thanks for stopping in everybody.
[Blowing out three candles for my blogoversary]
-Grape-
