i haven't posted in over a week. mostly because i am spending more of my 'excess' time thinking about a new business that I can start to make a million and partly becuase the guy and my time has been cut drastically. Primarily because his current work assignment is aggressive. We went to our favorite hotel last Friday - it was great as always.  something new and different always happen when we get together.  This time when the guy has his O he immediately starts snapping his fingers - which i guess is an ego boost to me - but i don't think i've gotten to the point where i am as active in the bed as i want to be.

 

well, my first wall went up with the guy. it's not that high but you know what that means.

it's nothing that i really fault him for but it was still a disappointment. we were going to have lunch - i had actually decided to eat lunch rather than walk since we had not seen each other over the weekend or Monday.   well after we confirmed we would meet and logged off.. a few seconds later i get a message saying he just got invited to a work lunch. yes i was annoyed, now i'm just kind of numb cause i hate that kind of stuff. well the stuff i hate is that i get to excited about something and then i get let down. i guess i'm more at myself for being so emotional, so now i'm in the middle of the road with emotions.

 

we are going to meet to walk.. he wants to sit and talk but sometimes you gotta keep the situation in your own hands. :)