Why do I seem to sabotage everything I ever try to do good for myself? It doesn't seem to matter what it is. For instance I screw up dating for myself by being too needy and vying for attention. I screw up my job by being a day dreamer and not paying attention and #$%*ing up all the time. Which leaves me feeling like a real loser most of the time. I'm almost thirty, living with my parents, $50,000 dollars in debt with a useless degree. I have no idea what to do. I want to have a job I can be proud of but I feel like I just not good at anything that is marketable. My real passions are unrealistic. I mean being a rock star is great in theory but in practice it's a little hard to come by. I feel like I've sabotaged my entire existance. I can't go back to school cause it's too much money and I can't get anymore loans. It makes me want to run away into the hills and live in a cave. Oh why couldn't I have been one of those people that knew what I wanted to do at 6 years old? My life terrifies me.