Whatever do I mean?
Four years ago, when I was just starting out as a developer, I would be the one who would always say yes to client request. I would be the one who would whine constantly yet still do what is being ordered to me. I would be the one who would cry if I got reprimanded. In short, I was a pussy, a pushover.
But now, I've become someone who is too witty for her own good. I didn't really notice it but according to my teammates, when someone pushes my team over the edge, I would answer in a polite yet double meaning manner. But to be honest, I really have no intention of being sarcastic to anybody. All I want is to be realistic in their expectations with us. I've adapt a policy of underpromising at the start so that I can wow them when I deliver the extra mile.
I can't believe that I even stood up to some managers and even CEO's. Which when I think about it, I should be more careful if I don't want to get fired.
Oh did in addition, I just got regularized in my current job. But no, I'm not that ecstatic. The HR even asked me when I was signing the new contract, "you don't look happy". In the back of my mind, I was already expecting that I'm getting regularized and I know what it entails.
Maybe I'm just getting old that I'm a bit jaded, or that I'm being aggressive.
If I were my boss 4 years ago, I probably would have cried. LOL. Although my teammates are really proud of me when I am standing up for them, and even some of the managers are rooting for me. Though, I've always pictured myself as this sweet girl, whom most of the time is a pushover.
Times have changed.
Cheers,
Jackie
