Been busy with work stuff - have played a few times. We held a short ceremony in which i took vows to be His worthy slave! and now i am on a new training program. My first task for this is to express what being a slave means to me and what activities i am interested in.......hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm..
What being submissive means to me...........it means to submit to my Master in all things, in the bedroom and in real life. It means that my Masters pleasure is first and formost. His pleasure is my responsibility and my pleasure to provide. It does not mean that i have no opinion, but that, after i express my opinion, i must accept my Masters decision whether He agrees with me or not. my submission means that i choose to give myself to Him without question - it means i trust Him implicitly because He is worthy of my trust and will always take care of me and do nothing to harm me. It means giving up control and not trying to take control through passive aggressive behaviour or through manipulation. my submission means being utterly honest with myself and my Master about my wants and needs and fears.
Activities i'm interested in as a submissive.............i'd like to belong to my Master and submit to Him at all times - in public and in private. With private sessions being more intense and demanding but work and public situations having a more subtle slant and maybe key words for us to use to communicate certain things. i would like to have some guidelines on how and when i can express my discomfort with an idea and/or physical things. i like to be tied up - but not so i'm very, very uncomfortable because there is a point where i cannot get past the pain back to pleasure. i would like explore what pleases my Master and increase my ability to tolerate and get to subspace through domination and pain. i like to be flogged and spanked and pinched, with a gradual building of pain to increase my tolerance. i like to be dominated and feel loved and cared for. i love to worship my Master and take care of all His needs.
