I awoke this morning early.  Much earlier than I should be awake on a sleepy Sunday morning.  The thoughts in my head were much to active to allow for much rest for my body.  The bounced and ricocheched the whole night causing damage and multiplying as they went along.  Impossible to get a handle on or dismiss.  I thought about yesterdays events and what they mean.  Do they mean anything at all and I am just putting more value into them than they deserve.?  Am I under valued, or over sensitive?   I decided that being productive this morning might be the best way to clear out these rampant thoughts so I came downstairs, cleaned the kitchen, bathroom and living room including the floors.  I did some laundry.  I took the dog on a nice walk.  The whole time...no matter the activity all I could think about is the fact that he is upstairs sleeping.   When he went up to bed last night I sent 2 text messages.  I saying that I was sorry that I ruined the evening and that I wish I knew how to fix it.  The second saying that I hate that the night ended that way, with us in the same place and yet so far apart, and that I loved you and hoped you had a good night.  He didn't answer back.   Maybe it means I am overreacting that this fight did not really register with him.   Argh ....the thoughts are taking over again.   Creating havok in my mind...it my well being.  

I need to move on with my thoughts and my day...I am letting this effect me way to much.  Perhaps a long shower and another walk will help me.