Sometimes I wonder if it is just better to be single.  I ended things with Lee because he was just being too suffocating and I couldnt do anything without him wanting to be there at my hip.  And he wasnt happy with the new job and how busy and stressful it makes me.  He actually told me to quit because it was stressful and he didnt get to see me much.  So I sent him to the curb LOL.  I cant give up a job that I love and feel like I am making a difference.

 

So then I started to go out with a co-worker and the next thing I know he introduced me as his girlfriend to someone after I told him I want to take things slow and just get to know each other before getting into a relationship.  He told me he would marry me in a heart beat which scares the shit out of me, is paranoid like nothing else, didnt like it that i was going to a friends wedding and danced with some of my guy friends.  Like he got so mad and when i asked what was wrong he actually said "you should know"  its like hes part woman.  But I finally got him to see that i dont want a relationship yet and to get to know him, but he thinks its his fault and because he um couldnt get it up. which is so not the case,  I just want to be single for a little while, is that such a bad thing?

 

Then I have been talking a lot to my friend TJ.  We go to church together and he and I keep each other up and entertained when we work midnights by texting each other.  A few people at church have decided it is their mission to try and hook us up because they know I am attracted to him.  They made a big deal out of him coming over to teach me karate for one of my stories and so I can defend myself.  Not to mention at camp a week ago everyone kept asking my mom what was going on between me and him because we talked alot.  I dont know where that is heading, but he is a good guy and I wouldn't mind seeing lol.  But for now I am content that we are just talking and getting to know each other better.

 

Now for the clincher....Nate the purple haired ex who just deleted me from myspace without explaination...he and I are talking again.  He explain why he did what he did.  Which is he felt it was the best idea because he didnt want me to have to live the artists life and struggle.  He said looking back it was a mistake and he should have talked to me, but knew that i would be able to talk him out of moving to myrtle beach and leaving me here.  I understand why he did it though I dont agree with him methods or anything, but things are going okay with him.

 

gotta go people are here LOL