You are a slut.. not in a bad way. You just like sex and want to indulge yourself in it. You like it. There is nothing wrong with it, not at all.

You want somebody to take you, to fuck you all ways, you want sometimes to be in control, to take the guy and fuck his brains out.

It sometimes said that people behave like that have a low self esteem but that is not in your case. Not at all. You have behaved like that before and you were never the victim, you were never the fool that were "tricked" into doing it.

You took control.

But everybody says it is a bad thing. Especially for a woman. She should not indulge into so much lust. She should find a single guy and love him, marry him, have children and live happily ever after.

But it does not work that way. You can not hide from youself for long, you can not push it down, it will just popp up again. So why hide? Why not indulge yourself? Why not be honest about it?

I can take it, yes I know what I have said before. But I dont want you watered down, I dont want to cage you, I want you and nothing else. And you can never love me if you do not face this feelings.