Life lately has been just a big ole bowl of shit on a stick. I have no idea where to begin, but I know I need to get so many things off of my chest. I guess I could start with the most recent thing.
Today I went to get my first car. Yep my first car at 26, my very own car. I test drove two cars and fell in love with a Colbolt, LT coupe. Black with black interior, awesome car to drive and a decent price. Well I went to get a loan and was told I need to go through a credit union so I went and opened an account with the one that works with my company, and called about a car loan. Guess what....because of the damn student loans my credit is shot to the point where I cannot get a loan for a car. It isn't just the student loans, my credit card was in default, but up to date now. And apparently there is a cell phone in my name...
The thing is my cell has always been on my mom's plan. Never in my own name; I have part of the account number because I guess I copied it down wrong, so I cannot find out the address for the cell or anything. I never got anything in the mail about it or anything. It's 600 dollars now and I have no idea what to do. I tried going online and cant find anything out because I don't have all the numbers, I try calling the number i was given and it has been busy for the past 2 hours. My first thought was my ex fiance, but he swears that his cell was cingular when we were together, and I would think that if it was him the amount would be a lot higher than 600 after 3 or 4 years since we broke up. I have no idea what to do I am beside myself because I am trying so hard to get things back on track and get my life together after the cancer and all i keep getting is road block after road block.
I am so frustrated with things and there are times when I want to give up and be a bum or a hermit living in a cave, but where is the fun in that? I am trying to get my writing out there, but that doesn't seem to be going anywhere. The only thing I have going for me right now is my job, I still live at home, no good man in my life, no car of my own and while I want one I cannot get one because of some shit on my credit report. How do I even get y credit score to go up? How do I get a better credit score, it is very poor right now and I want it to get better. What can I do other than cry my eyes out?
