hey,

the guy and i met yesterday at 3 star hotel downtown. downtown hotels are ok, but they suck due to the 2 hour parking.  we had about 3 hours but 2 hours went to quick with me releasing some stress i had by cursing up a storm about jerks and i was 'working' or faking it and i gave the guy a facial. the last hour was really really good. the guy finally came first although i did too at the same time or slightly afterwards. it just felt good having him close to me and not below my belly button most of the time.  for a while i was thinking things might slow down and he figured out why - we had stop having breakfast together cause of his work schedule. it's really critical how much communication and connection keeps people together. i guess that's why my marriage is in trouble... for contrast, my husband never just talks to me or listen to how i feels cause he takes it personal or i can't tell him about my gripes cause then he'll hold grudges against the people i'm griping about when all i want to do is get it off my chest. but then occasionally he just wants to lay his head on me and i'm sitting there trying to fake cuddle but there is no wow we had a great day today together even if our day was crappy so let's cuddle feel.  btw, the guy doesn't know this, but i guess when he reads this he will know..

 

more later