I realized that I didn't do very well with spelling in my last post....but to be honest with you, I don't really care.  I can make up a list of reasons why too, but I won't.  I won't insult your intelligence or try to make myself look like something I'm not.  I misspelled and I don't care, besides life goes on and I'm sure that before I take my last breath I'll have committed much more heinous crimes  than misspelling....So, yeah, whatever.

 

Been sitting here, listening to the rain, silently thanking the rain gods, and feeling like crap.  For some reason today, not been up to par.  I've been working so hard with my youngest and now I'm wondering if I'm getting a bit burned out or something.  I'm with him all day, talking, and talking, and talking till I hate the way I talk, the way I sound, I hate talking.  I'm not really complaining, but then maybe I am and does it matter?

 

Not really.  Not when you get right down to it, it doesn't fricken matter.  I'm his mother and I have a responsibility to him.  So, saying that, I'm finding it hard now to get in the things I want to do say like blogging, our website, lifting weights.  In the grand scheme of things all of those things are nothing more than just dust floating around.  But I'll admit, I'm a bit selfish.  I'll weed out the non essential, I always do....I have always put my children first and I always will....just sometimes, I wish I could spend one day doing whatever I want to do....Those days no longer exist and I'm afraid by the time my youngest is on his own, I'll be too damn old to do anything anyways.

 

Well, tomorrow is another day of words and next week will be our appointment with the cops for my 18 year old....*sigh* Life....teens....children.....family......when it gets right down to it, I wouldn't want it any different, except maybe the cop thing...