• pusscat said on Jul 09, 2009....

  DLS - I am a broken sub right now and am probably not the best person to advise you but, I will come here to say (you have brought me out my own exile cos I care about you) that he has no right to tell you he can't actually be your master right now due to genuin circumstances, but not bother fucking telling you he has taken on another sub when everything is hunky fucking dory!!?  I don't think so.  God, how are you meant to read or process that?!??
  
  You are hurting now.. Of course you are, so would I.  I wanna kick his lying ass and shake him so hard but I know, you are like me hun, and by tomorrow you will be defending him all you can - yup - you're denying it now but I've just been there about 20 minutes ago darling.  It hurts don't it hun?  Hurt don't even cover it!
  
  You know how destiny has this way of ensuring things work out?!  Ever thought that, that is why M2 came into your life?  Just to ensure you had the right shoulder, ear and sadism to get through it ?. . .
  

• WillsRose said on Jul 09, 2009....

  oh, fuck. oh love. i'm so sorry.
  i know how much this hurts. how it feels when your whole world crumbles to bits and suddenly the submissive thing isn't what you can do right now. you need the 'fuck the world' attitude for a bit. or at least i did.
  i don't know why men choose to not tell us things that they think (read- know) will hurt us. but they do. somehow if they don't tell you they're not hurting you or risking losing you. the way He's done it shows (and i know you don't want to read this) that He does care about you. He couldn't be the one to hurt you, so if you found out about everything and reacted badly to that, He could wash His hands of it.
  i agree with pc, M2 did arrive just in time. He does care for you deeply, anybody can see that, and i hope you let Him help you through this and grow with your new Master.
  if there's anything at all i can do love, please get in touch. If M2 wants another Dom to talk to once in a while, i'm sure Master would be glad to help. and once again, i'm so sorry. nobody deserves this.
   
  All my love
  Will's r
  xXx

• sweetsoul said on Jul 09, 2009....

  So sorry DLS.
   
  This is never easy in any relationship, but it's my belief that it's more difficult in a D/s relationship.
   
   

• DaddysLittleSlut said on Jul 09, 2009....

  Thanks girls, I appreciate your sympathy and yes you're right M2 has been here by my side both supporting my and encouraging me to forgive.
  Letting me know that guys do hesitate to act when they're not sure what to do..
  But, it hurts and I don't know what to do about that.  I'm not sure what can be done.
  
  I don't know if I can serve or trust or be a sub... I know I'm letting M2 down and I can tell his heart breaking too even though he's being his usual selfless self.  I just wish I knew how to move forward.
  

• WillsRose said on Jul 09, 2009....

  You can't be a sub at the moment. Trust has been broken and even though M2 didn't do the hurting, it's going to take a little while for you to be able to trust any Dom, including Him.
  The most important thing is for you to let yourself be upset and let M2 support you, not as a Dom, but as a friend and a human being. You will get back on your feet again. Or is that on your knees? But don't rush or worry that you should be able to just 'snap out of it'. You've been hurt and had a stumble. You'll come out of it stronger than before.
   
  Will's r
  xXx

• onlymimi said on Jul 10, 2009....

  I completely agree with rose, above me.  I'm so sorry he broke your heart and your trust.  time heals, Dls, it really does.  Be kind to yourself in the meantime.  It was M1's failing, not yours. 

• DLS_Master said on Jul 10, 2009....

  Well, I hope you feel better now. You have just aired our dirty laundry to an open forum based upon your assumptions. You have assumed that I found a new sub and that you were being thrown to the curb and you have totally closed your mind to anything other than that.
  Have I found someone locally that I would like to pursue a D/s relationship with? Yes, I have. Do I know for a fact that she fully understands the lifestyle and is ready for that type of commitment? No I do not. We have known one another for less than a month and we only spend time together before work and at lunch. Did I intend on telling you about it? yes I most certainly did,when I felt I knew for sure where things were going. I have always had the utmost respect for you and had every intention of discussing with you in detail. That discussion would have included the fact that I intended on taking on another sub and you would have been given the opportunity to continue our M1/M2 relationship as it has been or you would have been given the option to be set free if it was not acceptable to you. Th question one has to ask is at what point this discussion should take place? First meeting? Second? or when one knows for sure that it is right? Think back, did it not take a lengthy process to decide whether the lifestyle was right for us? Were you not given ample opportunity to research and experience prior to making the commitment to be my sub? I reffered her to soulcast so she could see what others had to say about their experiences with the lifestyle. She was very enthusiastic and asked for permission to post. In retrospect, this is where i failed as a Master. 1)- I should have maintained control and had her post her first experiences and stories to me personally for my eyes only rather than the open forum. I got caught up in her enthusiasm. 2)- I should have had my discussion with you prior to her posting in an open forum.
  I can now see where you felt a betrayal in our trust. I did not see it at first only because there was no intent to betray only my ignorance. Think about it, if i had intended to betray you would I have signed on with my sign on name of DLS_Master or would i have created a new profile so I could intentionally stay hidden? You have always made me very happy and I cherish the time we have spent together. As you know, it has been tough with the long distance relationship and the changes with my work requirements have limited my travel to CA. For some time now I have voiced my concern of your lack of personal attention. I have recommended we find a local D that could give you the normal contact that you need and deserve. In turn you met M2 and began a long term vanilla relationship. When you decided you needed more than what a vanilla relationship could provide you decided to tell M2 all about your D/s experiences and had him read through all your posts on soulcast to see if he would embrace the lifestyle. I don't recall you conferring with me prior to making this decision. Granted afterwards you and M2 requested permission to enter into a two Master relationship. Is this feeling out process you went through with M2 any different than what I went through? Again, I repeat My fuckup was by letting it be posted on an open forum prior to discussing with you. That was disrespectful on my part and i appologize.
  If you feel the need to be free then I certainly understand and respect that decision.
  OK, now it is out there for all to see and feel free to take your shots at me.
  I do not feel I need to explain or defend my decision to seek the same happiness that you have provided with someone that is local to me.

• DaddysLittleSlut said on Jul 10, 2009....

  I feel two things from this.. one your hurt at my asking for a second master and two your distance from me. 

  My posts are public and asking someone to read it is not like asking someone to call me their sub or have me call them Master...

  Having her post on Soulcast without telling me about is exactly where the fuckup occurred.  Why not have her introduced to me properly... (remember the punishment I took for not telling you i went on a date when i didn't even know the rules yet?). I gave you the option of accepting M2 .. here you gave me no such option.  Did you have her post with a little revenge thinking ......take that..  You have yours and I can have mine too. 

  I kept reading ...saying to myself.. "No Master has never lied to me."  "He would never do this."  "Its just my insecurity. " "Just wait. Everything will be ok." 
  Crying into M2's shoulder's having him reassure me not to jump to conclusions.  "He would not do that to you.  He loves you.  Everything will be ok."  But its not.

  Are you pissed that I posted this?  why..  did it have ramifications?  I did my best not to say who what or where.    If you were as honest as you said you were.. then it was just my rant at your one mistake.  What's the big deal, I've ranted many times. That's why you had me post here.  To meet others in the life that I could talk to.. who the hell else is going to understand that my long distance master broke the one and only promise that we had left holding us together.

  You had no other obligation to me whatsoever.  You didn't have to reply to my posts, my emails, my emotions, my needs, my wants, nothing.  Not one single other obligation.  Everything else had been set aside because of your schedule.  If you chose to respond then I was at your command.  M2 was carrying out your desires, training me so that he could bring me to you, show my new skills to you and earn a title of Master and Dominate.  But you were under no obligation to do anything for him and you really didn't did you..  Couldn't even get time to answer an email.

  You do not feel the need to explain or defend your decision to seek the same happiness that I had provided you with someone local... ?  That wasn't my complaint.  All I ever asked was that you warned me so that I wouldn't be hurt.

  What about your decision to break our bond by disregarding the last of your obligations to me.  This is as you say where you failed me as a master.  You are right.  You are not looking out for me.  You are not being my master.  You are not my master.

  The one thing i don't feel in response of yours is any love for me.  So.. life goes on and I don't wish you harm.  I'm sure you'll recover if this post caused you any.. you're a charmer.  I know our relationship was down to almost nothing but you were still huge in my heart and I was always trying to find ways to be near you. 

  Oh one last thing.. I assumed i was being thrown to the curb..  No I didn't.  If you had another sub, and was properly introduced all those wonderful things could have happened.  
  NO I am hurt because you broke the last thread of our relationship.. the trust.

• sg138 said on Jul 10, 2009....

  I am not going to comment on what as happend , but I would like to say how it has affected  me . it sucks

• collared_whore said on Jul 10, 2009....

  i am sorry for the pain you are going through DLS--i would  be very hurt by that too.  Hang in there. 

• pusscat said on Jul 10, 2009....

  I have stood on the sidelines reading this for long enough today without commenting but I'm sorry now is the time for me to be here.
  
  DLS_Master - you did indeed make the error of not telling DLS what you were doing in this situation.  With all due respect Sir, there is a huge difference between the both of you talking about what may or may not happen in the future in relation to another sub in your REAL life and you actually just going out there, selecting a sub, then letting DLS find out about it all second hand.  Not a good move though i know you regret it now.  The thing is Sir, if us subs did acts like this without REALLY thinking about repercussions we would face severe and deserved punishment.  Our Sirs appear to be beyond retribution.  I believe Sir that you owe her a very long and private conversation.   Her heart was broken by you and therefore, the onus is on you Sir to rectify this and make her see that she is worth SO MUCH MORE THAN THIS!!
  
  sg138 - there are many aspects of this story that I am sure I don't know.  What I do know is this.  DLS does NOT give her HEART lightly.  If she gives her trust to someone then that someone is HONOURED with a capital 'H'!!!!!  Do not take heed of what she says when wounded Sir.  Please take heed in the words that I have seen her type.  Anyone that truly knows DLS, also knows that she does not put down in black and white for all to see what she does not believe in.  She believed in you Sir when you came into her life and I know she STILL believes in you.  No matter what has occurred verbally or none verbally these past couple of days, do not desert her Sir.  By God, if you don't know her by now and you desert her becuase of the foolish, inconsiderate actions of M1, then you dn't actually deserve her.  Thing is, something in your hurt words I read earlier tell me that you DO think highly of her.  You DO care about her.  SHOW her M2 Sir.  Please.  She is so worth it.
  
  

• sg138 said on Jul 10, 2009....

  PC I have not left her I am staying by her side for as long as she will let me or until she finds someone better. I just don't like the way M1 did this and his lact of respect for me and DLS.

• DaddysLittleSlut said on Jul 14, 2009....

  OK .. after talking on the phone.. I dug my collar out of the trash but I can't put it on.  I just don't feel I can be owned right now.  I feel like I am watching out for myself and I'm the only one I can trust. 
  I know that statement will hurt you SG but you know how your situation affects me.  I know its not your desire to be in that situation right now but that's out of my control.
  
  I love both you wonderful guys and I know I would submit to either of you if asked but I believe asking is the key.  I just can't be blindly obeying right now.
  
  I know I still need your love, guidance, and your protection.. I just also need your patience and understanding now too.
  

• sg138 said on Jul 14, 2009....

  Your statement does not hurt me , I feel that only you can watch out for ones self. I will be by your side for as long as you want , I am trying to move ahead in life so that I can be the one you can trust. I care greatly for you and will do what ever it takes to help you be safe, feel loved, and happy. I ask you for patience to , I have a lot to do and a long road ahead.    

• seer said on Jul 14, 2009....

  hey, that's harsh.
   
  Sometimes you get hurt trying to love, to cherish, and sometimes you have to try again, and let yourself fall again to find that special someone.
   
  Please don't give up looking for your master. You'll find him, just as I will find my Sub, my pet....

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