Hi again
by now you must be used to my whining, I just wish I was strong enough to get the hell over it. my problems arent going to change until I do, or I give up on this relationship. I'm giving it till next Sunday when I will see him for 5 days and just hope he'll agree to straighten out a few things for me.
I sent him an email asking him to set aside some time when we're together to talk, and got a response saying all I needed to know is that i'm doing fine, he loves me, he will give me the tools to live my life fully and freely and in return I will be there to be his bitch, slut, whore and serve him how and when he pleases with a DO YOU UNDERSTAND BITCH? on the end.
So I'm giving up asking for direction or guidance till I can talk to him in person. I asked a question about my elderly parents and how I was worried how telling them about my marriage breakup would affect their health and got a bit of a rant in return on how these worries only exist in one place in the universe, my head..etc. There's been no loving words since.
I'm trying not to let my emotions swing up and down according to the tone of his infrequent short emails, but its really difficult. I have to toughen up or this is a dead end street and probably damaging for me.
end of whine. Thanks :)
