I'm working on erasing the bad thoughts that go through my head. It's been going on for years now. I want the thoughts to stop. I want to think positively. I'm trying to see if I can knock the shit off by the time my next dr.'s appointment comes. I need to better my life. I want to be happy. There has to be a way that I can be just that. I have to fix my self esteem. I have to be stronger than I have been in the past. Only then can I start looking for a job. When I have a completely positive outlook on life, I'll be alright. I have to ignore the obsessions that people have with getting me upset. This is my life. I've got to build myself up in order to succeed. I've got to do what I think is best. One way or another, I'm going to be ok. I have to be, despite what the stupid tarot cards say. What kind of sick shit is it when your fortune always looks bleek? I think it's best that I no longer bother with tarot cards. I know that the real higher power ain't going to let me fall apart after all of the hard work he put into healing me. I'm believing in getting involved with witchy shit less and less. I know that someone is looking out for me. Maybe that's why people fuck with me. Maybe they are jealous when they shouldn't be. I think that God is reaching for me because I seek truth, even if I do make an ass of myself and turn back to Christianity. I don't know if that's the answer or not. With all of the negativity that engulfs the bible's pages, I am not too clear about it. The God portrayed in the bible is a hard ass. The one that I know is kind to me most of the time. Go figure.
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destinydiva said on Jul 02, 2009....
you sound like you need a hug darker ((((((((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))))))))
xxxx
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Hegemone said on Jul 03, 2009....
Well I wish you the best of luck in whatever it is that you decide is right for you, and also in your journey to positivity. -
UnicornForm said on Jul 03, 2009....
so true. imtrying to rid myself of the bad to...only if someone who lived nearby would take the same vow... -
darkerthanlight said on Jul 04, 2009....
Thank you destinydiva. (((((((((((((((((((((((((hugs back)))))))))))))))))))))))Thank you too Hegemone. I appreciate the good wishes.UnicornForm I hope that we can both get rid of the negative thoughts that go through our heads together. Someone that lives near you needs to do the same? I hope they see the light. Thank you for your comments. -
UnicornForm said on Jul 04, 2009....
yea my dad n bro. ive been trying to read the bible more and i agree....maybe i havent read enough? but anywho we will get rid of them and theyll never find their slimy way back....XoXoXo -uniform -
darkerthanlight said on Jul 04, 2009....
UnicornForm, I just made a blog post that criticizes Christianity. I apologize to you for my viewpoint because maybe the bible will work for you. I always found negative stuff in that book personally. Maybe you'll find the good in something I can not. Good luck to ya. -
UnicornForm said on Jul 04, 2009....
Well... christianity is a religion, and honestly i dont feel i should rely on a religion. I think that just trust in the lord, always keep him my top priority and talk to him i think that is enough...than i am trying to read the bible because id like to show him i am interested in all his works...i was told that bible means book instrctions before leaving earth and god wouldent allow it to be flawed, yet its been translated so many times by so many different people whos to say if they werent controlled by a demon. i have got in arguements with church people about this so i will stop... i think its a test like everything else never the less...but i will go read your post now! lol and dont apologize for different veiw points, we is all unique. -
darkerthanlight said on Jul 06, 2009....
Well, UnicornForm, I think it is healthy that you believe in someone bigger who will guide you through life. Carry on. As long as you have hope in something, life seems more worthwhile to a person. -
UnicornForm said on Jul 07, 2009....
yep. you better find some hope, or...or....i will be upset :) -
Misty_Eyed said on Jul 09, 2009....
(((((((((((hooray for the lovefest in here))))))))))) -
darkerthanlight said on Jul 12, 2009....
Cool people, yo. Really you are.
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